Forever And Always (Season 2 of Long Time No Seen)

Chapter 6

Justin called me everyday, like he said... Until last week. His calls and texts were becoming lesss frequent. I was sad, of course, but I knew he was busy guy and of course he wouldn't have time for me. I was now sitting alone in my room, staring at the ceiling. Yep, my life is already a mess. It's still January, actually almost the end of January. Justin is in Japan again. [idk where he'll be in Feb 2011... lmao] and he'll be there for the next week and a half. When my phone rang, I jumped up and ran. "Hello?" I said, out of breath. "Hi Melani.." His beautiful voice rang in my ear. Me: "Hi Justin!" I smile widely. Justin: "Yeah, uh, hi. Listen, I have to go soon so I needa say this quick. Will you come to my birthday?" Me: "Yeah of course. Why wouldn't I?" Justin: "I don't know. Anyway, I gotta go. See you soon, Mels." Me: "Okay.. I guess. I mis-" But the line was cut. I sigh and slouch my body. There was no "I love you," or "I miss you." He just.. Hung up. I crawl into bed, tearing up a little bit. Justin's getting a little too busy for "us" and I knew that this was going to end soon. I closed my eyes and soon fell asleep. ------------ [again, SORREH for the skipping.. It just works out that way. :/] The days wore on, and soon, all of Justin's calls and texts stopped completely. I call him, and sometimes he answers, but then he has to go soon after that. The thing that hurt most was that he never said I love you or I miss you. Never. I said it, but he didn't. Does he not love me anymore? That can't be it.. He said he would've told me right away. His birthday is tomorrow, and he already flew us out to Stratford. We're staying in his house. And be "we" I mean, me, mom, Alex, and Becca. I nervously knock on the door and step back. Becca: "Don't worry, Mels.. He still loves-" The door opens and there stands Pattie. Pattie: "Oh hi Mary! Melani, and Becca." She smiles at us. Pattie: "Come in..." She steps aside, and my jaw immediately drops. Justin... He, he was making out.. With some new girl. Becca: "THAT DOUCHE. I AM GONNA-" I hold her back. Me: "Let him be.. He looks happy. So if he's happy, I'm fine." I fake the worst fake smile ever. Pattie: "Justin! Melani and them are here!" He pulls out of the kiss and turns toward us. No, no, no don't cry, Melani. Be a strong girl. The strongest freaking girl you can be. Becca: "I'm gonna kill him." I shake my head and quickly wipe a small tear before more come. Justin: "Hey Melani. Hi Becca." He comes over with that girl and smiles like he didn't just rip my heart out. I open my mouth to say something but nothing comes out. Becca: "Hey Justin." She says with attitude. Justin: "Sup with you guys?" My eyes lower down to his hand, which didn't have my ring on it, and was on that girl's waist. Me: "I.. I..." I shake my head and turn around, running to who knows where. Running away from Justin. Running away from the pain. Disclosing myself from the world. He forgot about me... *JUSTIN'S POV* I watched her run away, Samantha grasping onto my waist. Me: "What's wrong with her?" Becca furrows her eyebrows and pulls her arm back, forcefully slapping me. Becca: "You're a douche!" and she storms off, slamming the front door behind her. Samantha comes to help me. Sam: "Oh my gosh. Justin, I'm so sorry.. I SWEAR, I saw a pap here. I didn't mean to hurt your girlfriend!" She furrows her eyebrows. Me: "It's alright," I groan. "You didn't know." Sam: "You want me to go talk to her? 'Cause I can do that.. I don't wanna mess anything else up in your relationship." I shake my head. Me: "No, she's my girlfriend. I'll talk to her." She nods. Sam: "Again, I'm SO sorry." Me: "Don't worry about it." I head out the door, trying to think of how I would explain myself this time. *MELANI'S POV* I stopped running when I saw grass beneath my feet. I collapsed onto a bridge, and stared down at the water. The only thing my mind was wondering about was why didn't he just tell me like he promised? I started letting out all the tears I've been holding in. I get hurt by Justin, but in the end, I always end up hurting him.. Our relationship is nothing. We have nothing... I soon hear footsteps and immediately thought it was Justin. But when I saw the long black hair appear beside me, I knew it was Becca. "He forgot about me." I croak. Becca: "No, he didn't.. I know my cousin. He would never forget a special person in his life.." Me: "He promised he wouldn't cheat.. He ALWAYS keeps his promises, Becca." She sighs. Becca: "Well, we don't know the whole story yet.." I say nothing and stare at the little fish shapes down below. Becca: "I'll let you two talk.." She pats my back and stands up. That meant Justin was here now. Great. More crying. More drama. No more "Jelly" Justin: "Melani, baby.." He sits next to me. I keep my eyes on the water. Justin: "I'm sorry." I nod slowly. Me: "I know.. But I don't blame you for finding another girl.. I mean, she's freaking GORGEOUS, and by the looks of it, a pretty good kisser. She's-" He interrupts me with a small kiss. Me: "Better than me.." I finish my sentence. He shakes his head slowly. Justin: "NO ONE'S better than you..." He gently wipes the tears from my cheeks. Justin: "I missed you, KitKat." Me: "You never said it..." My eyes go back down to the water. Justin: "I know.. But I was afraid that if I said it, I'd start crying in front of everyone.. And then I'd be bawling my eyes out in my room, thinking how we could've been laying in bed and cuddling right now. Or how we could be laughing together.." Me: "You never said I love you." I whisper, starting to tear up again. Justin: "Shh... No, no don't cry, baby.. I don't like seeing you cry. Don't cry..." His voice cracks and he pulls me onto his lap. Justin: "If you cry, I'll cry." I start crying into his shoulder. All those tears I've held in since he left. Everything just started pouring out. The tears from losing daddy. Tears from when Justin left me 7 years ago. Tears from all this pain I've had for the past 7 years. He just holds me, which makes it worse.. Was he with that girl, or what? I hate that there always has to be a girl between us. Me: "What are you doing here with me?" I sob. Me: "What about your.. Your girlfriend?" He wipes the tears from my whole face. Justin: "She's right here.. Looking more beautiful than I've ever seen." Me: "But I'm crying.. My makeup is runny, my nose is red, I'm a mess." Justin: "I still see beauty.." He wipes the remaining tears. Me: "You're lying. I'm hideous." I laugh a little. Justin: "To others, maybe. But to me, you're the most beautiful girl in the world." He smiles and places soft kisses on my face. Justin: "I missed kissing you. I missed hugging you. I missed doing everything to you.." He pauses. "Wait, that sounded really wrong..." He smiles cheekily. I roll my eyes and lay my head on his shoulder. He lays his head on mine. Me: "I'm sorry." Justin: "For what?" He whispers. Me: "I've done a bad thing.." He scoffs. Justin: "I'm sure it's not as bad as what I did to you..." I shut my eyes and bite my lip. Justin: "What is it?" I take a deep breath. Me: "I, um, I kinda made out with Cody. Multiple times.." He lifts his head off mine. Justin: "What?" I don't meet his eyes. Me: "It was an accident.." Justin: "How is kissing someone an accident?" Me: "I don't know. Why don't you ask yourself that? When you "accidentally" kissed your fucking ex girlfriend. It was just a kiss!" Anger starts to bubble up in my stomach. Of course, another freaking stupid fight.. But by the looks of it, probably our last one. Justin: "At least I KNEW the girl. You don't know Cody!" He starts raising his voice. Me: "He was a better boyfriend than you ever were." He furrows his eyebrows. Justin: "Oh is he? Yeah, I'm sure he went through everything just to make you happy. I'm sure he got you pretty things. I'm SURE he fucking tried everything to get you to love him!" Me: "You're acting like a child." I cross my arms and stare at the fish again. Justin: "I'M the one acting like a child?!" He starts to yell. I flinched. He hasn't yelled since that time when we were nine. Me: "Yes, you are. It was just a kiss. I wasn't the one cheating!" He starts yelling with tears coming from his eyes. Justin: "I trusted you.. And then you go and kiss that dude. I was never going out with Sam. It was for the publicity. All those kisses were fake. EVERYTHING was fake. And if you can't even trust me enough to know that I would never do that again, especially after I promised, I can't.. I can't be with you anymore. And you know what, I'm DONE trying to please you because apparantly NOTHING makes you happy. I try everything to stop you from hating me, but I always ending up getting hurt by YOU. Physically and emotionally. I can't deal with that anymore. We're over." He throws something to the ground and storms off. What did I just do? I overreact way too fucking much. And now look what I did. I just lost my LIFE. I pick up the small object, and my heart drops like 50 feet more. It was my ring.. *JUSTIN'S POV* I NEVER wanted to say those words. EVER. Especially to Melani. I was just so confused at that moment. I didn't know what to think. It was my fault for never listening to her.. But it was also her fault 'cause she kissed the dude. Everything just spilled out of my mouth. I was just sick and tired of throwing myself at Melani, only to get broken hearted every single time. I walked into the house, my heart dragging behind me. Sam: "What happened? Oh no! Did I ruin your relationship?!" Pattie: "Justin why are you crying?" Becca: "Dude, what'd she do?" Me: "I'M FINE!" I drag my lifeless body up to my room and slam the door behind me. I fall onto my bed and scream into the pillow. WHAT HAVE I DONE? I stand up and pull at my hair while pacing. Me: "I'm so stupid. ARGH." I punch the wall. "FUCK!" I yell in frustration and pain. I don't wanna be "over" with Melani. I wanna be together. Inseperable. Forever. Becca: "Dude, open the door. Why are you screaming?" Me: "I dumped Melani!" I sob into my pillow. I wanted to wake up from this horrible nightmare, but it was real. Every fucking thing I said was real. And I can never take it back. *MELANI'S POV* I dragged my useless body back to Justin's house since that's where we were saying. As soon as I stepped foot in the door, I immediately regretted coming back. Justin was at the doorway. We looked at each other for a freaking millisecond then lowered our gaze. Becca: "You two. Talk." I shake my head and practically drag myself to the kitchen where mom was. Mom: "Hunny, what's wrong?" I say nothing as my lip starts to quiver. I sob and run into her arms. "Justin broke up with me.." I said it, though I didn't want to believe it, but it was true. Jelly was over. Melly and JustyBear were over. WE were over. I was never the one to cry over a boy, but Justin wasn't just any boy. He was everything to me. She strokes my hair as I cry like the little 6 year old I was acting like. Mom: "It's okay, sweetie.." I start crying harder. That's just thing. Everything WASN'T okay. Pattie walks into the kitchen. Pattie: "My gosh, what's wrong?" I shake my head and start crying again. Pattie: "He didn't..." I nod. Pattie: "I'll go talk to him." There was too much talking and not enough loving. Me: "I'll be in the guest room.." She lets me go and I go upstairs. Justin's room was right next to the guest room I was sleeping in.. His door was wide open. He looks up and has really red, wet, and puffy eyes. Justin: "Melani-" He cracks. I hold up one hand and shake my head. Justin: "Please, just-" I walk away before I burst out crying again. I'm not gonna let him win me back. Even if I knew for a fact that we really and truly love each other. Why wasn't I taking him back? Because it'll never work out... It's my fault that he dumped me. It's always my fault.. *JUSTIN'S POV* I stayed in my room all day, curled up in a ball and crying my eyes out. I didn't eat, didn't speak, barely looked at anything else besides our pictures. But of course that only made it worst. Mom comes into the room. Me: "If you're trying to get me to leave this room, it's not gonna work." She sighs and sits on the bed. Pattie: "I won't make you leave, but I will make you tell me about you two." Me: "No, mom.. Please don't make me talk about it... It hurts too much. I can't even think about it without crying." More tears roll down my cheeks. Pattie: "Look, you two love each other. Everyone knows that.. And love is never easy. Especially at this age. But I know you two can make it through your problems. Your love is stronger than your fights, it'll work out somehow." My doubts were high, nothing was working for my sadness. The only thing that would work is if Melani forgave me for that stupid mistake. It was way past stupid actually. Pattie: "Think about it." She hugs me and leaves. It doesn't seem like it'll work out. We have fights, like, every freaking day. But that's what I loved most about her.. She always seemed to forgive me for the stupidest things I did. Whether it was because she loves me, or because she was just nice like that, she forgave me. I sigh and decide to sleep. Maybe my birthday will get better... I got ready for sleep and crawled into bed. I stared at my text-less phone, hoping for a text from her. But of course there wasn't. I text her "I made a mistake.. I don't want to be over... But if you don't want me back, I'll understand. Just remember that I love you no matter what I say or do. I just can't believe that I even said those words.. I mean, you don't deserve to be told that. Sorry will never work for what I did, I know. But I want you to know that I never wanted this to happen between us.. Good night, Melani. :/" Text was never a good way to communicate, but I couldn't face her. Not after all I did. I close my eyes and slowly start to fall asleep. *MELANI'S POV* I had I'll Be on repeat, JustyBear close to me, and Justin's SuperMan boxers on. I've been in this room all day. Not doing anything but living in my sadness. My phone vibrated. A text from Justin.. "I made a mistake.. I don't want to be over... But if you don't want me back, I'll understand. Just remember that I love you no matter what I say or do. I just can't believe that I even said those words.. I mean, you don't deserve to be told that. Sorry will never work for what I did, I know. But I want you to know that I never wanted this to happen between us.. Good night, Melani. :/" I bite my lip as more tears come. I text back for once.. "I never wanted it to happen either.. But everything happens for a reason. I don't know what your reason is.. And I don't need to know... Look, I love you Justin. A lot. We all know that. But.. I think we need to just leave it like this. There's too much drama in our life when we're together. It'll never work. Goodbye.." ... Send. It IS best like this. I shut my eyes and let out the last tear I had. "Night daddy.. Hope your new life is better than mine right now." I turn off the lights and try to fall asleep. Thankfully, it worked. *JUSTIN'S POV* I was almost asleep when my phone vibrated. I immediately shot up and opened it up. I read her response, dying more and more with each word she said. I guess it really was best that we stay out of each other's lives.. I didn't like it, but I knew it was best. I turn my phone off and pull the covers up to my shoulder. I stare out the window, and remember us counting the stars with her. NOTHING could get me to forget about us. But I'm just gonna have to try. We're over. That's it. End of our fairytale. I guess it's true, fairytales don't always have a happy ending. And ours was definitely NOT happy. I close my eyes and immediately start getting tired. And you know what I dreamt of tonight? I dreamt of nothing.. Without Melani, dreams aren't worth having.