Lack of quality in interactions and relationships
Self shame in the feeling of incompetence / inadequacy
Feel so disconnected from people and the world and even myself
I feel no homesickness for any today existing place
I feel nothing for almost everyone I've ever known
But my biggest desire is to have the deepest bond with my love and soulmate for eternity through time and space and dimensions and reincarnations
All my life even my parents look and feel like strangers
I hardly know or recognize the people I've spent so much time around
I constantly feel like I'm not even here
Not here in this galaxy at all
When people say I have attachment issues
They mean just that
The world I walk in doesn't seem real at all
Clouded by mist it seems
People come and go so often I hardly remember them at all
And I can't seem to remember when something happened
Time is forever lost on me
This chronic feeling of lonely
The aloof disconnect
Inability of stay
Consistencies only of struggle and fail and watching people drift away
This is not even poetry
Just a rambling act
My insensitivity
I am my own demise
