everything was going so good, i needed to hurt. happy fucking new year.
me: i don't know why i'm calling. it's ringing. wasn't i blocked last week? she's not going to pick up. she's not going to pick up. she's not going to -
nina: hello?
me: oh, hey.
nina: ...
me: yeah, it's me. happy christmas and new year and stuff.
nina: are you... fucking with me?
me: i'm sorry.
nina: for what laundry list?
me: for everything. for calling you, for everything. for not telling you the truth. for ruining our relationship and then running it over with my stupid goddamn proverbial truck of fucked-upness.
nina: well thanks. happy fucking christmas.
me: nina -
nina: fuck, cooper... why are you calling me? why now? why can't you just let this die? i unblocked you because i thought we both knew that it's over. i'm trying to be okay. you should too.
me: so you really - y-you really feel nothing?
nina: are you drunk?
me: that doesn't matter. i... don't know why i called. i'm sorry. i should go.
nina: i can't take your "sad boy" bullshit, cooper. i get it, you fucked up and you love me still. i don't know. but you hurt me so much, can't you fucking see that? i'm trying to recover. i'm trying to move on.
me: ....
nina: fuck you. fuck off. it's almost been a year and i don't owe you shit. fuck off. go fuck that abby girl, go fuck up the rest of your life. i don't care. i really don't care anymore. why can't you let go of me? i. don't. want. you.
me: okay, i'm sorry, i won't.. i won't call you ag-
nina: did you tell her? does she know about your dead twin brother? does she know you're damaged? does she know what she's signing up for?
me: you think alb and i are a thing? i'm not in love with you like i was a year ago, but i still care about you and want you to know how much i regret not telling you about him. you're hurt because i didn't tell you about my sick, dying brother? you're hurt because i'm hurt? fuck you, nina. i'm sorry i called you.
nina: i'm not blocking you. please don't make me. bye, cooper.
me: i wish she hadn't answered.
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fading voices [ the SEQUEL to little talks ]
Short Storysometimes there is nothing worse than an apology. - cooper