fading voices [ the SEQUEL to little talks ]

[ 07 ]

with each day it gets easier to pretend my love belongs elsewhere.

nina: so... how's the girlfriend?

me: oh, uh, she's good. 

nina: yeah... sounds like it.

me: i totally boned her.

nina: ew. did not need to know that.

me: we're not really dating yet though.

nina: and you've already... boned or whatever?

me: prude.

nina: no, i just meant, we didn't until a while -

me: i thought you didn't want to talk about the past?

nina: i don't.

me: doesn't seem like it.

nina: so was i just a first time experience or something?

me: i did give you my virginity, yeah.

nina: oh.

me: ...

nina: same here.

me: you were the first girl i ever loved.

nina: so there's been more since, um, everything?

me: a few.

nina: oh.

me: i got the message that you wanted to move on.

nina: i didn't know.

me: sorry.

nina: you never answered your fucking phone.

me: what?

nina: i called you almost every day over the summer.

me: you did?

nina: don't you lie to me!

me: nina, nina - calm down! 

nina: you've always been a damn liar, i can't believe what i wasted on you.

me: nina, please...

nina: cooper, just leave me alone!

me: but -

nina: can't you see this is killing me?

me: nina, i -

nina: i don't think i can be friends with you right now.

me: my number, it changed, i posted a link on facebook -

nina: stop. fucking. talking.

me: i swear, i'm not lying about this! someone posted a bunch of phone numbers on 4chan as a senior prank and i kept getting strange phone calls and everything! 

nina: you never called me.

me: i wasn't ready.

nina: really, cooper? really?

me: uh...

nina: you know what?

me: well -

nina: fucking answer me.

me: what?

nina: you were never, ever ready.