A Life's Lesson Book One

aftermath and trying to heal

           Bpov

I ended up running to the park and it was raining. I stopped and slid down the tree. I pulled out my phone and noticed I missed several calls from Edward. I texted him.

Bella: I'm scared.

Edward: Where are you baby.

Bella: At the park.

Edward: Don't move baby I'll come to you.

Bella: okay.

I pulled my knees up to my chest and buried my face into my arms. About ten minutes later I felt a hand on my arm and jumped and about screamed. "It's alright it's me." I look up at Edward. "I don't want to go back there Edward." I told him.

"Okay!" He told me. He got on his phone and then scooped me up and carried me to his car. We stopped at the dorms and he told me to wait in the car. Then he came back out he drove for about 15 minutes and pulled into a long driveway and there was a cabin. "Where are we?" I asked.

It's one of our cabins!" He told me. We went in and he showed me to the guest room and walked out. I grabbed my pajama pants and a t-shirt plus my bathroom stuff that was packed and took a shower.

I woke up in the middle of the night and went out and looked out the sliding glass door. I knew I loved Edward and was scared to death Tanya was right Edward really didn't want me that way. Tears fell from my eyes cause I was so scared.

Then I felt arms wrap around me from behind and I leaned back into Edward. "You want to talk about it?" Edward asked me. "No, not now!" I told him. He kissed the top of my head and he didn't push me. I asked him if we could stay here for awhile and he told me as long as I needed to.

The rest of the week though I noticed Victoria and Tanya was hanging around Edward so I avoid them. I kept thinking how could he. After practice I went to straight to the guest room and avoid Edward more. Come Friday at practice Rose and Alice confronted me and asked me to go out so I agreed.

When I got to my truck though I noticed Victoria and Tanya leaning against my truck and asked them what they wanted. "For you to stay away from Edward. You know he isn't going to want to touch you. Cause your an ugly monster Bella." I slammed the truck door and sped out of there.

When I got back to the cabin I jumped into the shower. By the time I was done Alice and Rose were there and gave me a cute white dress and matching sweater to wear with it. I grabbed a hair tie and put it on my wrist.

When we were at the club I noticed Victoria and Tanya hanging around Edward and how Tanya was touching Edward. I walked into the bathroom and put my hair into a ponytail like I use to and took a paper towel and wet it down and washed all the makeup off. A lonely tear fell from my eye. I walked out to the bar and asked for a long island ice tea. Which had a whole bunch a drinks mixed together. I guzzled it and asked for another. About 4 drinks later I was feeling pretty good. I walked over to Rose and Alice and stood next to them. They looked at me confused. I told them not to ask.

As I took a drink I looked at Edward and seen Tanya leaning over and she pressed her lips against Edward's. I turned and guzzled my drink again. I ran back up to the bar and order another with a shot. But order a couple of shots. I had about 3 more drinks and I walked up to Tanya and tapped her on the shoulder she turned around and that's when I smacked her across the face. I walked away and for some odd reason I went to the dance floor and started dancing by myself.

Maybe because I was drunk and I was piss and I couldn't leave cause Alice drove me here. After about 20 minutes I felt hands on me and jumped. I backed away and looked who it was. It was a black guy with dreadlocks. "Hi I'm Laurent. I saw you dancing by yourself and thought you could use a dancing partner." He told me. "Ummm, sure." I said. What the hell was wrong with me damn it.