A Life's Lesson Book One

trying to myself from breaking

           bpov

I just kept running I didn't stop. I knew I didn't want to feel this pain. The storm was even getting worse outside. Lighting strikes lighting up the night sky.

I didn't even know how long I had been running and then after a while I decided to cross the road  because I decided where I was going to go and I knew I already past the road to the cabin.

But as I crossed someone slammed on there breaks and I braced for the vehicle to hit me and it would save me from where I was going and this was quicker.

But nothing happen and when I looked up I seen my truck with Edward driving it. He wasn't going to stop me and before he could get out of the truck I finish running across the road and took off again as fast as I could to the cliff.

Being barefoot running just on the edge of the edge of the woods did not help my clumsy drunk ass either.

I finally made it and I was just on the edge of the woods on the top of the hill. I walked out and I seen the road and turned and looked down the hill. My dad's truck was still down there.

Then I heard a vehicle and I hurried to start down the hill. But then I ended up tripping and rolling down the hill and this time I didn't stop and rolled off the right the edge.

I managed to grab a big tree root sticking out. "What was I thinking damn it!" Now that I'm hanging on for dear life. I actually don't want to do this now.

I slowly reach in my sweater pocket trying not to lose my grip or my phone. God please just get me through this. I just click dial. "Bella!" Of course it would be him I call. Of all the people I friggin call damn it. "Ummm, help!" I could kick myself right now. My one hand started to slip.

"UGH! NO, NO, NO." I told myself. I looked down. "Oh god that was not such a good idea especially when you been drinking." I said. "Bella what's wrong?" He asked me. "I'm kind of hanging here."

"What do you me your hanging?" Omg is he a complete idiot? "What could you be hanging from Edward? My god have you been hanging out with Emmett too long. oh no wait, NO IT WAS FUCKING TANYA!" I snapped.

"Hey that's not fair. You won't even let me talk to you Bella." I roll my eyes. "You know what forget Edward go save Tanya again why don't you. I'LL FUCKING FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO HELP ME!"

Just then I started to slid a little more. "ARRGGHH!" I screamed out. "Bella you alright?" He asked me. "Don't worry about it I'm fine." I told me.

"I don't know why you have to be so freaking stubborn!" He says. "I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU HAVE TO FUCKING LIE TO ME AND KEEP GOING TO TANYA. WHEN I KNOW SHE IS PRETTIER THAN ME. BETTER THAN ME, HELL PROBABLY EVEN A BETTER KISSER THAN ME."

"Now I know you're drunk." He chuckled. I arched an eyebrow. "I don't get it!" I said. "You are 100% better kisser than Tanya and beside she can't well turn me on at all like you do Bella."

"You're not just saying that are you?" I asked him. "Nope! Most diffidently  not." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Do I believe him, but then I think back to the problems he had from dirty dancing and what happen because of it and I was his first as he was mine.

I was taken out of my thoughts when Edward was yelling out on the phone. But then I started slipping again. "NO,NO come on I can do this." I told myself as I grip tighter. "Edward I really need your help here. But you're going to need rope."

"Oh god! Please don't tell me. Hanging here doesn't mean what I think it means." He says. "If it hit you that I'm hanging over the cliff on a tree root then yes I am. There's rope behind my seat in my truck."

"I'm not asking about the rope and let me guess you're at where you and your dad had your accident." He says. "Yes!" I slipped a little more. "Edward please hurry. I don't know how much longer I can.."

I got cut off when I dropped the phone in a hurry to grab ahold of the tree root with both hands. I almost ended up losing complete grip.

I very slowly started to pull myself back up the tree root so I could get a better hold and if I started sliding again I have a better advantage too.

But I kept slipping and I kept trying to pulling myself back up. But then I slid off the tree root. I kept trying to grab something but I was  sliding down the rocks. I was screaming up until I was finally I landed on a small ledge.

"UUUFFFF!" "OUCH!" I didn't feel nothing break thank god. But I was sure going to feel it later.

I laid there a moment a little daze. "BELLA ARE YOU ALRIGHT?" I heard Edward yell. "I'M ALRIGHT! BUT YOU'RE GOING TO NEED MY DAD'S CLIMBING GEAR AND HELP EDWARD. I'M TOO FAR DOWN FOR YOU TO REACH ME WITH YOUR ROPE."

"ALRIGHT JUST DON'T MOVE BELLA." Is he kidding me. "REALLY EDWARD, WHERE AM I GOING TO GO!" I snapped. "RIGHT! JUST A LITTLE FREAKING OUT HERE BABY."

"YOU'RE FREAKING OUT! I'M THE ONE ON THIS LEDGE HERE!" I told him. "I WILL BE RIGHT BACK AND WHETHER YOU BELIEVE ME OR NOT BELLA I DO LOVE YOU!" He told me. I lay my head back on the rock wall and close my eyes. "I LOVE YOU TOO EDWARD." More then you'll ever know. I told myself.

I can't believe I even thought about ending my own life. Does this make me a bad person now? I brought my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around my legs and lay my head down on my knees.

What was I thinking? People care and love me. I need answers though. I needed to know why Edward keeps going to Tanya. Why did the trio just leave me and only just touch me. Was it just to see how I would react or is it just their sick twisted minds to get their rocks off.

For Tanya. What's is it with her stalker shit. Is she stalking me or Edward or both of us. Out of the blue I started to sing the song bring me to
life by evanescence.

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

[I stood up and stood back against the rock wall and moving as if there was music but careful not to go to the edge. I knew now one more song had to be added to the concert.]

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

I accidentally step close to the edge and was trying to keep myself from falling off the ledge. But it didn't work because I went over and started falling until a sudden stop.

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