A Life's Lesson Book One

saving Bella, thinking back where I left off part 4

bpov

When I turned around and lost my balance. I fell into the river. They were right when they say you see your life past before you because that's what exactly I saw.

Then I heard Edward yelling at me. I tried to stay above water but it was to fast moving and I kept going under.

Then as I felt myself drifting into darkness I felt someone grab ahold of me. I kept hearing Edward's voice that I wasn't leaving him now. I felt myself slipping away.

I open my eyes to see my mother and grandma Swan. I looked around and we where in this beautiful meadow. "Am I dead?" I asked them. "Not yet my sweet girl. But you have a choice to come with us or go back." I looked at them.

"I want to stay with you guys." I told them and my mother walked up to me.

"Let me show you something first." She took my hand into hers and we were standing over my body and Edward was giving me cpr.

"No, baby come back to me please." I heard Edward saying. I let go of my mother hand and slowly walked around to the front of Edward and he had sadness in his face.

Then the scene changed and I was outside our bedroom. I could hear Carlisle talking to Edward.

"Son it's been 5 years since she died and you haven't left this house." Then I heard Edward raise his voice.

"LEAVE ME BE. YOU KNEW SHE WAS EVERYTHING TO ME. I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT HER DAD. JUST GO." I watched as Carlisle walked past me.

5 years and he never left. Then he walks past me and I follow him and we end up back at the river and he falls to his knees.

"We never even got a chance. I never even got a chance to talk to you. All I ever wanted was you Bella. I just wish you could've seen it. You were, No you still are and always will be mine to love."

I kneeled down in front of him and tried to touch his face. "But I do see Edward. Now and it's too late and I'm sorry Edward."

I felt my chest hurting and I started coughing as the darkness overtook me again. Then I coughed up water. "Oh thank god baby!" I felt myself being pulled into a tight hug.

"You found me!" I told Edward and he pulls away. "Yeah! Bella I didn't do..." I stopped him.

"I know! I just wish I seen it a long time ago." I reached my hand up and touched the side of his face.

"Seen what baby?" He asked. "The truth, that you really do love me." Tears started falling from his eye's and he pulled me closed to him again. "Yes baby I do love you and only you."

He finally scooped me up and carried me back to the house. "What the hell happen?" My dad asks as he came running up.

"She fell into the river!" Was all that Edward said as he walked through the house to our bedroom ignoring everyone.

He finally sat me down and I felt the shower come on. "Edward I still have my clothes on." But as soon as I said that Edward was taking my shirt off. I looked up at him.

"You are so beautiful!" He told me. I stood on my tip toes and pressed my lips to his and the next I knew he had me against the wall in the shower. Then he had to muffle my moans because what we were doing was pure passion and out of love that we felt for each other.

When I felt my release I buried my face into his neck and screamed out his name and it sent Edward into his. We slid down to the floor and just held each other.

"I love you Edward Cullen and I'm yours forever." I told him. "I love you too Bella Swan and as I'm yours forever." I smiled into the crook of his neck.