A Life's Lesson Book One

Finding out a little about yourself

            Bpov

I looked up and Edward turned his Jeep sideways. "NOOOO!" I screamed out. But then I couldn't see anything. I finally stopped the truck. But I couldn't move I was to afraid to. Then I watched as the car drove past me and it felt like they went by in slow motion.

I waited for a little bit before I turned my truck around and drove back. I was breathing heavy when I came around the corner and there was Edward Jeep still side ways in the middle of the road. I got out of the truck and slowly walked over to The Jeep and Edward was hunched over the steering wheeling so I couldn't see his face.

I opened his door and slowly put my hand on his shoulder. He slowly turned his head and looked at me.

He grabbed a hold of me and pulled me into his arms. After a few minutes I pulled away and smacked him and I turned and walked to my truck and got in and drove to the cabin.

I couldn't speak to anyone I just walked past them into the cabin. I walked into the bedroom and sat at the end of the bed on the floor with my knees pulled up to my chest. All I could do is stare.

I think I was in shock. I was that way for about 3 days until the 4th night I was watching Edward sleeping and I turned and walked to the music room and turned on the song Edward was going to sang and I stood there and closed my eyes and started to move with the music and sing and tears started to fall.

Up until I started throwing things and screaming out. Then I felt arms wrap around me. "It's alright Bella!" I heard Edward tell me. "No it's not okay Edward. I could've of lost you, I could've of lost my dad all because of me." Edward turned me around to look at him.

"THAT'S RIGHT BECAUSE OF YOU! BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! BECAUSE YOUR DAD LOVES YOU! There's not anything I would not do for you Bella. I wish you could see that. I love you so damn much but sometimes you're so damn blind you can't see it." He told me.

"Don't you understand Edward. I do see it. It's just I'm so scared that I don't know what to do. I got treated like shit all my life that this is all new to me. God I'm so scared of losing you and I can't stand it if that happens. You already know what happens when you're not around, what happens when you disappear Edward?"

He stood there a moment and then pulled me into his arms. "I don't know baby. I really don't know." He kissed the top of my head. "I don't want to fight anymore Edward." I told him. "I don't either." I looked up at him. "Then what's your problem?" I asked him. He arched an eyebrow. "Edward with the dirty dancing." I stomped my foot.

He ran his hand through his hair. "You really want to know?" He asked me. "Yeah!" I told him. "Well remember what happen at the bar and we had to rush home." He told me. "Yeah and?" I questioned. "Bella do you not recall what happened that night?" He asked me. Then I thought about it.

"OH MY GOD!" Edward covered my mouth. "Baby I beg of you not to wake up the whole house." I nodded my head and he let go of my mouth. "You mean to tell me it, I turn you on that much?" I asked. He just nodded.

I went and grabbed the head set and wiggled my finger for Edward to bend down. He did and I put the headset on and went and locked the door. "Bella what are you doing?" He asked me. "Just humor me." I told him. I grabbed the remote and punched a couple keys in the computer. The stereo was already on.

"Ready!" I asked and he nodded. I pressed the remote and started the music Edward started to sing. Then I started to dance in front him. Then I moved slowly to him. Them when I was against him he grabbed my hand and we started to dance. Then when it came time for me to slide down him he did good. He did his marks.

"Now was that so bad?" I asked him. He smirked and shook his head. "Want to try another one?" He nodded. I did another song and I was surprise this time when I sung the song.
Cause now we were just having fun and he was matching my moves.