Poetry

Waves

I'm so angry,
All the time,
From dusk to dawn,
My fury rises,
My fury falters,
Yet I shouldn't be mad,
My life is at a content flow,
But how am I supposed to adapt,
To happiness,
To peace,
When all I've grown up with was crashing waves and an unsteady life,
Why can't I let go,
Let go of all this pain that is trapped inside my body,
I'm frozen and my heart beats slowly through the ice,
Why can't I slow my brain down,
Why can't I breathe,
Why can't I sleep,
Why am I asking why,
Oh why do I feel so numb to the pain,
I should cry,
But I cannot,
Flashbacks of my past are the reasons infallible tonight,
The reasons why I can't sleep,
Can stop thinking,
Won't stop being so angry,
I am so angry,
Oh so angry,
Between the hot and the cold,
I'm not sure if I'll freeze or turn to ash,
For all I know,
I'm furious with my soul,
Oh so furious and I cannot let go.