Just Another Girl In The Crowd

PART 12

I feel as if I should tell Calum the secret. But I can't. He fell in love with Mia, not me. He doesn't even know me... He knows Mia-Annabella. The broken, young fan girl who is a bit of a victim and nerd. Little does he know.

"Come with me, I'll get you back to the tour bus and tucked it" he smiles and helps me up.

I brush myself off and shake my head hard.

"I can't, Calum. I can't stay anywhere near him, please don't make me." I whisper to him.

He kisses my forehead and I feel his warm breath tingle against my skin.

"Mia this is important. Please just come back with me and think this through..." He ushers.

I shake slightly. I have to do this. Come on Mia, you've been through a lot worse. Think back to 4 months ago...
I nod, agreeing with Calum. Gently he picks me up and cradles me like a baby in his arms.

"I love you so much, remember that Mia." He whispers as he begins to walk back towards the tour bus.

Yeah I know you love Mia...

"Yeah." I reply.

He puts me down, and stares at me.

"What, don't you love me too now?!" He raises his voice slightly as the words spill out.

"No, Calum please. Let me explain!!" I cry as he begins to walk off.

I grab onto his arm and he spins round.

"Explain then!" He angrily exclaims.

I shake. I can't do this... I know I can't. He
can't know. For now I will stay as Mia. Surely it can't do much harm.

"I'm sorry... I'm just so tired and feel like I've been taken advantage. I love you too Calum." I murmur into his ear, running my hands through his soft hair.
I feel him pick me up and I wrap my legs around him.

"Good girl, that's better." He whispers into my ear and then kisses my cheek.
I blush slightly and smile.

When we eventually find our way back, we say Ash and Dave sitting in the living room looking very serious.

"Miss Mia-Annabella. We need to speak with you. Sit down." Dave says to me, no emotion in his voice.

I sit down on one of the couches. Calum slumps beside me.

"I know what happened with Luke. But you can't let anything about it slip." Dave sternly warns.

"Why?! He FORCED me to have sex with him!!" I cry out.

Calum grabs my knee and rubs it gently, trying to calm me down. I shake him off and he takes my hand.

"Because if you let it slip, the band will be OVER. There will be no more 5 Seconds of Summer and Luke will be arrested. Why can't you see that?!" Dave shouts.

Tears fill my eyes and I nod.

"Okay." I manage to spit, disgust fills me.
"You won't tell anyone, will you?" Ashton asks quietly.

I shake my head. "No I won't. Not until this tour is over anyway." I manage to spit.

"NEVER." Dave barks.

I roll my eyes. Stop acting like you, act like Mia.

"Okay." I whisper.

Eventually we all get into bed, Calum and I sharing. His arms wrap around me and we cuddle all night.

Maybe I should just tell him the secret. Prolonging it will make it harder. I'm not Mia-Annabella. I'm nothing like her. He fell in love with her, not me.
As I stare up at the ceiling tears fill my eyes. I can't be Mia-Anabella forever. It'll be impossible.