Just Another Girl In The Crowd

PART 17

"Does he know about me?" Calum eventually manages to mumble, breaking the awkward silence.

I shake my head.

"Who does he think his dad is?" He asks slowly.

I shrug.

"I told him he doesn't have one. He's always drawn pictures of me, a man and him. I'll show you one of you want." I reply honestly.

He nods.

"Can I meet him?" Calum asks as we walk up the grand staircase and into Jacob's room.

I take one of the pictures and hand it to Calum.

"I don't know if that's a good idea." I mumble and remind myself of Jacob's recurring nightmares about his father.

"The man looks a bit like me." Calum says, astonished.

I shake my head and shrug.

"He's never even heard of you. It's just a tall man with brown hair and brown eyes. I guess he just made the man look exactly like himself." I reply.

Calum holds the drawing close.

"Can I keep it please?" He asks.
I shoot him a look.

"I don't know. Jacob will know if one of his drawings are gone... He's really clever and that'll upset him a lot." I explain.

Calum hands me back the picture and stares deep into my eyes.

"Please, just let me meet him. Just once. If he doesn't like me, I'll go. I'd just like to meet my one and only son." He begs.

I sigh. Jacob has had nightmares about his father since he was very young. He's woken up crying so many times because of the same dream. This situation is fucked up.

"Fine." I manage to splutter and he pulls me into a hug.

"I just want to be a good father. I don't care if we can't be together again, I wanna set a good example for my son. I'd like to be a proper father for the rest of my son's life. The best male figure in his life..." Calum whispers and takes my hands.

I innocently stare at him and nod.

"Just don't mess this up." I warn him sternly.

He takes my face in his hands and strokes my cheeks with his thumbs.

"I promise you I won't. I'll protect Jacob with my life." He smiles reassuringly.

I take a deep breath and exhale loudly.

"He'll be home soon. His sitter has gone to pick him up and they'll drop him off. Come with me." I bluntly say and lead him back into the living room.

Calum and I sit on the couch and he smiles at me.

"I've missed you." He whispers to me.
Luckily, the door opens and I hear Jacob's footsteps.

"Mummy?" He shouts.

I run through to the hallway and swipe him into a large cuddle!

"Did you have a good day darling?" I grin and kiss his nose.

"YEAH!! Timmy gave me a rock and it was so nice!! I made you a picture as well!!" He grins and points at his rucksack.

"Aw thank you darling! I'm sure it's beautiful! Now, I have someone that would like to meet you." I smile at him and walk with him on my hip into the living room.

Jacob glares at the unfamiliar man sitting on his couch.

"Jacob?" Calum asks and gets up, walking towards us.

Jacob nestles into me shyly.

"Jacob, I have something both me, and this man need to explain." I murmur to him and sit down, placing him on my lap and Calum sits beside us.

Jacob glares at the man with a frown on his face.

"You look like me." Jacob laughs and pokes Calum's nose.

I can't help but laugh slightly.

Calum laughs and nods hard. He begins to tickle Jacob, making them both laugh nicely.

Maybe this won't be so bad.

"Right, Jacob, you know I've always told you that you don't have a daddy?" I slowly begin to explain.

Jacob looks up at me and nods.

"Well this is Calum." I say, pointing at Cal.

Jacob stares at him and raises an eyebrow.

"I'm your daddy, Jacob." Calum slowly murmurs, smiling.

Jacob's eyes widen.

"DADDY!!!" Jacob screams and wraps his arms around Calum.

"DAD!! DADDY!! DAD!!!!!" Jacob screeches and climbs all over Calum, who is grinning uncontrollably.

Calum tightly cuddles him and smiles at me over Jakey's shoulder.

Maybe this won't be so bad. Calum loves Jacob. Jacob loves Calum...

I watch as Calum happily tucks Jacob in, planting a small kiss on his forehead.

"See you in the morning, dad!" Jacob grins sleepily.

Calum looks back at me and I nod.

"See you in the morning, Jacob. Sweet dreams." Calum replies and turns out Jacob's light.

I move as he shuts the door.

"So, should I come round tomorrow morning or?" Calum asks quietly.

I shake my head.

"Stay with me." I murmur and wrap my arms around his neck.

His warm breath mixes with mine as he stares down at me.

"Do you have a spare room?" He asks.
I shake my head, lying. This house is huge, of course I have spare rooms, but I want to share with Calum.

"We can share." I smile.

He smirks. "Can we finish what we started earlier in the day?"

I shake my head and tut.

"I'm not easy, Calum. You're going to have to work for it."

He rolls his eyes and kisses me gently.

I've missed him. I've missed his lips, his aura, how he smells and just him in general.
When he's around I feel safe. I feel happy. Let's hope that feeling stays forever...