Somewhere In Neverland

Friends

You know how in school you meet some of the best and worst people in life. How you meet the friends that will always be there and the friends that you drift apart from. I have that group of friends I don't think I'll ever loose cause I see them all the time in school. But then this year is different. It's most of those same people with the exception of one or two. But those one or two people, I don't want to loose, even though I know I am going to.

I can physically feel our friendship drifting apart. Seriously. I can see it. After this year we will no longer really talk or be friends. It's happened before. Two times actually. And I'm still not friends anymore with those people. And there's no real reason for that.

Nothing happened. No fights. No problems. We just kind of stopped noticing each other. Stopped talking. Drifted apart. And those friendships are mostly gone now. And that was a year ago.

Now it's happening again. With new people. More friends turning into acquaintances, then turning into by passers, then turning into strangers. We will say "hi" to each other in the hallways next year.... Maybe. But we won't have the friendship anymore. Not like we used to...... It's funny actually.

I can see that we are drifting apart. They might not, but I do. And.... I don't do anything to stop it. Maybe I want to see if they will at least try to still be friends with me.... But I don't know. Even if they don't try to, I still do nothing to stop them from drifting away. Maybe I'm just too stubborn to make an effort. Maybe I'm just a horrible friend in general.... Like I said I don't know. But what I do know is that I probably won't stop it. It is happening. And they will just be strangers in a few years anyway.

I'll have a few less friends. Not that I have many now anyway. But they will be gone. Then I'll want them back like the selfish person I am. Me. I'll want them back after I let them leave. It will happen. I'll watch it happen. It's been done in the past. It will happen in the future. Many more times. It'll happen. I swear...