Secrets are my Sanity

Chapter 13

Crawling in my skin

these wounds they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real. – Crawling.

Chapter 13

Nick went through his classes feeling like a zombie. He felt like he had died and no one told him yet. He went back to masterfully avoiding Shane, that was until the class they shared and they were forced to sit next to each other.

Shane must’ve been pissed because he didn’t look his way once. Nick wasn’t going to let that hurt his feelings, after all Shane was only doing what he asked.

Mr. Tyler announced it was time for another slideshow and then turned off the lights. There was a moment of complete darkness before the projector started, in that small moment Shane reached under the table and grabbed his hand. Two days ago Mr. Tyler had everyone push their desks together, again for project purposes.

Nick felt his heart jump and run all around his chest but he didn’t pull his hand free. He let himself have this small comfort in the dark. Shane’s hand was slightly larger and incredibly warm over his.

The nice feeling changed into something much carnal when Shane moved his hand.

The older boy moved his hand from Nick’s down his thigh; he squeezed lightly and kept moving upward. Nick jumped when that large warm hand moved across his shaft.

“Mr. Sheldon, is there a problem?” the teacher asked silently annoyed with the interruption in his speech along with the slides.

“No sir.” His voice squeaked, as the speech started back up Nick turned and looked at Shane to find him staring ahead as if he was paying attention to class. Nick swallowed hard and told himself to forget the whole thing, if he tried to confront Shane that would only lead to more questions on the older boy’s part.

The rest of the class went by painstakingly slow but eventually it was over and Nick gathered his things, he could wait for the day to be over. Shane left first so Nick decided to hang back until the classroom cleared out to avoid running into him.

When he left the room the halls were pretty empty now as everyone rushes to their next class or lunch. It was easy for Shane to spot Nick and even easier for him to pull him into the empty bathroom.

Nick’s heart was racing all over again, why can’t Shane just leave him alone? “What are you doing?”

“I decided I don’t want to play the nice guy and give you space and all that shit.” He really was mad when he resorted to cursing. “I refuse to pretend that kiss didn’t happen either or the way you let me hold your hand.” As Shane spoke he cornered Nick against the bathroom door.

Nick was starting to get scared, not of Shane, he could never be scared of Shane hurting him because deep down he was such a nice guy, but Nick was scared of his own feelings. “I have to go.”

“No you don’t.” Shane laid his hands on either side of the door, successfully trapping Nick between his arms. “You have lunch now; your next class isn’t for another hour.”

Nick sighed and avoided the blue eyes in front of him; Shane leaned back enough to put them at the same height. “And?”

“And I want to….talk.” Shane emphasized on that last word before his face came even closer, nuzzling the exposed side of Nick’s neck. He dropped his right hand from the door and slid it across Nick’s stomach.

Nick felt his muscles shaking, his toes curling inside his sneakers from such a simple action, but Shane’s touch was magical and there was no hiding how it made him feel.