It Aint Easy
you wouldn't understand
no matter how hard you tried
cant possibly know
what i'm feeling inside
you think you know everything about me
better than anyelse
but your wrong
for even i dont always recognize myself
but i guess i don't really expect you too
for you dont realize what it is that i go through
all the conversations begging you to let me
do what i want too
to become what i need to be
why can't i have that why can't i go
why are you stopping me is what i want to know
the world is calling for me
so why cant i reply
don't worry it's not like im going to die
and everyday is a workout that puts me to the test
and although i try right
i never find my best
i take one look around and think
who am i trying to kid
i'll never please everyone like i somehow wish i did
i know im not perfect
for who can be
still the thought is there
i wish you would at least try to see
i don't mean to always discourage or dissapoint you
but i can't please both you and them too
sometimes it's friends
sometimes it's family
other times it's peers
you and yes even me
i know it may sound stupid childish or dumb
but of all people you'd think you'd understand some
it all might bug you
get you angry
or hurt you
to you it's all fake and stupid
but to me it all is tru
i dont kno whats happening or who i will become
don't realize what it all is that i'mtrying to overcome
one minute im okay im happy and i love you
then the next im screaming out anger and i hate
finally overwheimed by the sadness of what i've done
all the pain erupts inside and my tears begin to run
you know i don't really mean everything that i said
i was merely lost in the moment with too many thoughts in my head
i wish you would understand
or at least just fake it
be willing to let me go and learn to somehow take it
ya' know you may be right
and i'm the one that's wrong
but dont bring me down for it and make me seem un-strong
trying to make me into someone you'd like to see
doesn't give me the chance to find out all that's me
and if i make a mistake along the way
let me learn from the price i'll have to pay
you can' keep me hidden from all that's real
i have to learn the truth and know how it will feel
i know it may sting you
to watch me as i grow and re-arrange
but you have to let me go
let me learn to change
its something you just have to do
put your trust in me
let me find my wings to fly
please set me free
im no longer a child i'll be fine on my own
just let me be myself and figuire this out alone
you've taught me the best you can over the course of the years
now its time to release me into the world as it truly appears
im in the middle stage
i'm what they call a teen
i'm learning to fly solo
there's so much i havn't seen
this may sound hard
but you've got to somehow try
i'm askng for a chance to learn exactly who am i
it's time for you to take a step back to the side
so you can say i let her o
that i've tried
i'm sorry to say this,but as a parent...
you don't know
what it's like to be me
to learn to grow
you just don't understand...
and though it may sound cheesy
the times have changed in this world today and,
IT AIN'T EASY
