Teach Me of the Will to Carry On...
Neck aching,
Back breaking,
Toes curling in all directions.
Heart pumping,
Feet thumping,
I never could reach your level of perfection.
Trying, Trying,
Dying, Dying,
If only I could just awake.
Whispers lying,
Heart thriving,
Every breath I steal or take-
It's not good enough.
What is there left to do?
To the red cliff of the mountains
To the youth and there fountain
To the sun that round me roll'd
In its autumn tint of gold,
The lightning in the sky passes me by
With the clouds that took to the storm-
And as the seasons rectify...
I'm left here all alone.
Tell me how to fix myself for you,
Tell me how to hold on.
Because through all the pain I'm in,
In awhile... I might just be gone.
Is it true what MIRZA said?
"I'm not meant to love and be loved."
I'm not meant to hold your hand,
And by your side, I cannot stand?
Knowing your faithless keeps me alive and hungry,
Knowing your faithful kills me with joy...
But, knowing your confused when you ring her doorbell,
Thinking its okay, I'll still be home...
That's... That's, Just not how it works.
I don't want to have to have my friends heal me anymore.
I don't want to feel unwanted, sick of myself, and insecure.
I don't want to feel inescapable anguish and I don't want to feel alone.
I'm taking a stand for my heart, letting courage seep through my every bone.
I don't want to be fragile anymore, I truly want to be sane.
And if I see you on the phone, I don't want to hear that whore's name.
I don't want to know how it was, because that's not how it could be.
I want to know that you care that... you'll do anything for me.
Here, I'll even make it easy...
Learn how to love me, there's not much time left to take.
Study everything that is me, from dusk till dawn.
And please, be careful in the choices that you make.
And than, if you can handle it,
Teach me of the will to carry on...
