I'm hurting

Why now

Why now ?

Why is it every time I'm happy something has to happen

The world is not nice at all

I finally get over the fact my father doesn't want me around

And next thing I know he sends me a letter

On the letter he says he want to be part of my life

But I know him far to well

He's just lieing to me

He never cared to begging with

Why would he care now ?

I feel like crying but I'm sick of shedding tears for him

He isn't worth my time nor kindness

He through it away the day he left

And now he wants to be part of my life

I think not

I just want to yell at him

Telling him " I DON'T NEED YOU ! YOU WHERE NEVER THERE FOR ME !"

But I know that will never happen

I just want him and his pain to leave me alone

I hate feeling like I have to be nice to him

Or live him because he is my father but I just want him to leave me alone