I'm hurting

Helping

I'm sick of helping

I help and what do they do

They pay me back with

Hurt

I tried to help you

I don't want to lose you

But what can I do

You don't listen to my pleads

I try to tell you my problems

But I'm too busy trying to help you

I'm sick of having no one to go to

I'm alone, but you had me

I tried my best, but you didn't want it

You didn't want my help

You just wanted me to suffer

I tried in all honesty I did

But having you jus repeat it

And not letting good come

Doesn't help you

You mean so much to me

But I know I've already lost you

My best friend

My twin

My best cousin ever

I've lost you forever

And there's no way your changing

I know you only see dark

But there's light

I just wish that my help

Actually helped

But it didn't

I love you but you just think negitively

You never see happiness anymore

I miss the old you

The one who laughed for real

The one that hugged me

The one who knew when I was sad

The one who actually cared about me

The one I love

I just wish you could see your not just hurting yourself

You hurt me to

But I don't think you realize that

I hurt so much because I envy you

You may not see it

But I TRUELY envy you

I envy that you have a whole family

People actually care about you

Your not forgotten

Or unloved

I am love, but not how I should be

I don't have a whole family

People don't care enough to realize

I'm not happy, but they can't see it

You have a mom, dad and brother

I have two sisters and a mom

Your family has time for both of you

I barely see my mom

I envy you but you don't see it

I'm done trying to help

It won't work and you don't want it

I love you and I respect your decision