Summer Break (A Leonardo DiCaprio fanfic)

Chapter Five

Last night when I got home I went down in the basement and watched all three movies Nina had let me barrow. I first watched What's Eating Gilbert Grape and Leo was fantastic in it! I then watched The Basketball Diaries and I'll admit he looked really hot in it even as a junkie, it made me cry during the scene where his mom wouldn't let him in. I then watched Romeo + Juliet and ohmygosh he was so freaking hot in it. Every time he kissed her I felt a piece of my soul leaving.

I came upstairs after watching and saw him laying on the couch watching Murray, I stood next to the stairs and just watched him, gahhh he was so beautiful. I really hate Nina for making me watch those movies. But I kinda liked him before but obviously he didn't feel the same way, otherwise he would have made an effort to try and actually talk to me. I shouldn't kid myself that a cute actor guy would want to be with someone like me. I'm first of all not all that stunning, and I'm a bit flat chested, and I'm insanely awkward. Ugh I don't want to start pointing out to much of my flaws.

Two days later

I was walking down the hall when I turned to look in the guest bedroom, I saw Leo hanging his head out of the window smoking. I decided I was going to do it. I was going to muster up the courage and talk to him. This was going to take everything in me but it's time to make the move!

I leaned against the frame of the door and anxiously tapped my fingers against my thigh. I gulped and then muttered out the words "You smoke?" It was all I could think to say.

He turned around and nodded "yeah your mom said I could smoke in the house as long as lean outa window"

"Yeah when Frank smoked, he would do the same thing" I said quietly looking down at my feet.

He smiled and turned around to look back out the window. "You want one?" He asked, then taking another drag.

"Nah I don't smoke, y'know because they're deadly... I mean not that you're going to die or anything. Well I mean you could die, but I mean we all die eventually, it's just smoking, well I read something that said each cigarette takes off a minute of your life. Not that I'm nagging you to not smoke, do your own thing-"

"You don't have to explain it all, I get what you mean" he interrupted then let out a small laugh.

"Yeah I um I babble a lot as you can see" I said nervously tucking a piece of hair behind my ear.

He put out his cigarette in an ash tray and turned around to me "yeah I started smoking about three years ago, I wish I could quit but it's hard y'know?"

I nodded and bit down on my bottom lip. "I hope you like staying here, sorry about the other day I wasn't snooping around or anything"

"Yeah it's been really nice here, and don't worry about it, I saw that book downstairs and I thought I'd read it"

"Well I'm finished with it, you could barrow it if you'd like!"

"If you don't mind that'd be cool"

I smiled "Hold on" I said running into my room. I walked back in and handed it to him. "It's really good"

He took it from my hand and looked down at the purple cover. "Thanks" he said laying it down on the bed.

"Well I'll leave you alone" I said and he nodded as I walked off. I laid down on my bed. "He's obviously not into me, he's not into me" I repeated to myself. If he were, he would have tried to spark up a conversation. Oh well, maybe he's shy? No that's not it, I'm sure he doesn't like me. Who would? I'm nothing special, I'm just like any other girl, he probably dates like models or something. Dammit and I gave him my Great Gatsby book, why did I do that? I'm not even done reading it. I just panicked when I couldn't think of what to say.

I laid on my bed for a few hours and tried to fall asleep, but I couldn't. My thoughts were keeping me up, maybe I'll go out on the roof and play my guitar. I haven't done that in a while.

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Sorry my chapters always end kinda weird. But I'll try and update soon! Thanks for reading

p.s, sorry it's so cringy, but I'm trying...