Fresh Air (Jay Park) COMPLETED

Pain

Yeri's POV

It takes me while to recollect myself after closing the door. Soojin pulls me up with her and places me on the couch. She knows how much this hurts.

"What happened?" She asks me while taking my hand in hers. She's trying to comfort me.

"The doctors told me I have less time than they initially thought", I cry out as she hugs me again.

"That's why you said that to Jay..." Finally she got it and realisation dawned on her.

"I can't see him go through this... He deserves more than a girlfriend who is about to die. This isn't right and not supposed to happen to Jay", it's painful to admit this to someone else than myself. I know Jay must've had a reasonable explanation for what happened back in Seattle. And in the end I would've believed him and gone back. But my illness keeps me from being happy with him. Sure, he'll suffer now, but soon he'll be thankful and moving on with his life. I just want him to be happy and to be able to focus on his career. AOMG needs him more than I do, his fans need him.

"How long did they give you?" Soojin whispers, probably knowing it won't be long.

"I have a year, tops, because I'm not doing the new treatment. That would give me another year, but it's not worth it. If I don't get a lung transplant, this will be going nowhere.." I sigh and pull back from her touch.

"Oh baby, that's horrible.. You don't deserve any of this. You should be happy, after all you've been through.." Soojin is reaching for me again. "But I'm sure he would understand if you told him."

"No, never. He will live a happy life without me. He doesn't need this", I immediately get up from the couch and start pacing the room. "He will not know of this."

Jay's POV

I'm left, standing there with a broken heart. Hoody tries to come over and comfort me, but I push her away. She won't be able to heal this wound. It's too deep and hurts too much.

This was not the real Yeri, was it? She was mean and direct with me. Usually she thinks about my feelings nowadays. And I just know how much she loves me, she told me so herself. It's no coincidence that she just came from the doctors and now she's breaking up with me.

"I need to talk to her", I whisper while getting up from the sidewalk and going to her apartment.

"Jay, leave her. She just made herself clear.." Hoody tries but I push her off again. She doesn't know Yeri, not like I do. Yeri is my everything and I'm not going down without a fight.

I climb the stairs to her apartment. She is so close. I need to talk to her, she needs to hear me out. My heart is in a thousand pieces as she scarred me with her words, but she is worth fighting for. We are worth fighting for.

I knock on her door after a long pause. There is no movement inside. I wonder what's going on inside, is she crying? Is she laughing? Is she happy? She can't be, can she? It hurts to even think about it.

"Yeri. We need to talk about this", I say with an exhausted voice against her door.

"No we don't", her voice is muffled by something.

"Give me a chance to explain, make this right", I plead with her.

"There is nothing left to make right. We're over. This is over." Every word hurts like a knife inside my chest. My heart feels like it's being ripped open.