Beautiful Mistakes Book 1 - Worst Night Mare

Worst Night Mare : Guy at the door

Hey so next chapter. Sorry haven’t uploaded in a little while I have had my foot bone popped back in place…yeah I know but anyway I should be back to writing like normal soon but school is starting to pick up I am in GCSE year so it is very important….but for now here is the new chapter…

Worst Night Mare : Guy at the door

I wanted to god knows I wanted to say yes. But could I, could I real just move in with Dan. I was only sixteen; I had my life ahead of me. And I know having this baby with him was a big commitment but moving in with him would make it seem a whole lot more real. Yes I was in love with him, and I had realised today I had been in love with him all along. But could I real just say yes. I didn’t know.

It felt like I had been ushered up on stage with no idea at all what to do. I was just frozen soiled. And behind my back it was like Dan wasn’t breathing waiting for my answer. Then another think popped into my mind could I real leave my family, yes I know one day I would have to leave them but I didn’t think it would be so soon, maybe a few years when I went to university or moved away, but could I leave them now just like my mum had. The last thought about my mum was the last thing to make up my mind I would not be anything like my mum and that is why I couldn’t move in with Dan at least not now.

I shook my head and I heard him sigh, I stood up from between his legs and stood next to the bed instead. I couldn’t bring myself to look at him, but I also couldn’t bring myself to move never mind leave. “Izzy please look at me” I heard him move on the bed and then I felt his hand and arm wrap round my waist effortlessly turning me round so I was once again in between his legs. I was still stood up now facing him. “Just tell me why?” he said searching my eyes, I couldn’t see how much my answer had hurt him, I knew he deserved a reason. “Please Izzy” he said cupping my cheek in his big warm hand. I turned my head and kissed his palm, before looking over his head to answer. “I can’t leave them”

Dan’s hand fell from my face just to take my hand instead, squeezing it he asked his next question “Who? You can’t leave who?” I still couldn’t bring myself to look at him, so I stayed staring at the blank wall above his silky and soft hair. “My family” the only way I could see his reaction was to look at his eyes, but I saw his head move up and down meaning he must have nodded. In understanding or not I couldn’t tell but I would look at him. I heard a sigh come from him and he fell back on to the bed. I no longer could keep my eyes off him so I glanced down to see he had his eyes closed, I watched as his tongue traced his bottom lip. His face scrunched up in concentration, “Could you stay tonight?” I was taken aback by this question, when the rejection came from my lips I was suspecting him to shout at me and order me out of his home not ask me to stay the night.

I quickly racked my brain trying to work out the day; it was Saturday meaning that neither Dad nor Jack were working so they could look after Jamie. But it also meant I wouldn’t be there to cook are weekly meal together. I glanced at the clock to see it was only four in the afternoon, “Let me see” I lifted the phone back up taking Tasha’s number out promising myself I would ring her later, it its place I put my home number. Dad picked up on the second ring, “Jamie shhh, yes hello” I could almost see my dad putting a finger to his lips signifying to the infant he need to be quite, I heard the laugh of my little brother in the back ground which made my smile “Hey dad do you think it would be alright if I stayed at Dan’s tonight?” I heard something moving, and the TV in the back ground, dad said something to either Jamie or Jack, before turning his attention back to me. “Yes Jack is getting the Chinese takeaway menu out now, and I was going to invite Katie over anyway.” I could hear embarrassment growing in his voice as he closer and closer to the end and Katie’s name.

I laughed little at my dad’s embarrassment before glancing down at Dan who was still lying on his need with his eyes closed waiting for my answer to his question which still hang in the air just like the last one had. “Ok Bye Dad see you tomorrow” I said Dan’s eyes snapped open at the last word and a smile spread across his face. Our eyes met as my dad’s voice sound into my ear again “Yeah look after yourself love” then the line clicked dead, and I put my phone back in my pocket. Before I could process what was happening Dan had brought me back so I was lying against his side with my head on his chest. I drew patterns on his hard muscular chest with my finger, grinning as he shivered under my touch. “I am glad you can stay, even though I will be happier when you and the baby both live with me” I smiled at the thought of us in a house, us married with a child. I quickly shook these images from my mind I had always been a live in the moment person, and I was not going to started dreaming and looking ahead now.