Devotion For Salvation (LokixSigyn) ON HOLD

Chapter 18

Today embarks the day Loki passed away. I woke up heavy hearted but I felt bliss because Balder took me out for the evening yesterday and we had dinner, went for a walk down by the shores, it was amazing. I felt confused around him. When he was around me I felt happy and was filled with joy but as soon as his presence was gone I felt guilty that my loyalty to Loki was broken. I didn't want to mope around and be miserable, I had to be positive in order to feel like myself again at least.

I have already accepted that I will probably never be the same little lady I once was. I could never go back to my innocent carefree life. I have an ability to manage but it's taken such a heavy tole on my body. I am burdened with power I do not wish to have any longer. My only hope lies with the doctors, maybe they'll have a cure for this insanity they call a gift.

"Good morning, Sigyn!" Balder waves his hand as he approaches me. I didn't realize that I have wondered off out of my room.

"Hello."

"Where were you heading?" Balder smiles at me. Gosh, please stop smiling. I don't want to be happy today.

"I am going to visit the doctor and see if he could remove something from me."

"Are you with child?!"

"Oh goodness no!" Balder laughs and blushes a little, I am quite embarrassed for not thinking before speaking.

"Do you mind me coming along with you? I would very much enjoy your company today." Balder stops me in my path and holds my hand. How could I refuse him?

"I would love for you to accompany
me, dear Balder." He kisses my hand and we walk to the healing rooms.

We go into the building and I ask for the doctor, the secretary tells me to sit down and wait. I try get Balder to leave but he insists on staying with me just in case.

"You wanted to see me, Sigyn?" The doctor asks

"Yes, I was wondering if you'd have any medication for my predicament. I cannot carry this burden anymore. I want to block the visions away for good. I am not getting any better." I stand up to show him that I am serious. This is no joke.

"Sigyn, you have a wonderful ability that just takes time to get used to. If you'd go to your appointments with the Seer's you wouldn't be in so much pain." Balder exclaims but I don't acknowledge his presence, which honestly almost breaks my heart.

"We do have some tablets that will block them out. But you can only take them every few months. An overdose can be fatal."

"I'm ready for anything." I shake hands with the doctor and thank him. He returns with a small bottle and gives it to me. He gives me a transcript that comes with everything that I will need to know.

Balder doesn't say anything after we leave. He thanks the doctor but he doesn't make eye contact with me. Maybe my little outburst bothered him.

"I will start the medication tomorrow." I say in hopes of making him happy.

"Okay." He grabs my hand and smiles at me. That smile...

We go back to my chambers and we go over the instructions and warnings listed on the transcript.

My stomach starts to turn and my mind feels foggy. Something felt odd but in a relieving way. I felt like everything was back how it used to be, but I don't know why.

I look at Balder and he is already staring at me. I blush and smile and he gets up from his chair and walks over to me. There's a nice and calm aroma in the room and he places his hand on my cheek and strokes it softly. I stare into his big brown eyes and feel at peace. Maybe I don't need medication. Balder is my cure.

Balder holds my face his both of his hands and I get up from the bed and place my hands on top his. He kisses my forehead and looks back at me. I look at his lips and before I knew it he was kissing me. He knew I wanted him to kiss me even if I didn't know myself.

"Sigyn!" Thor barges into my toom and Balder and I break apart.

Thor is silent as he stares at us in shock. We all exchange looks and it was so awkward I couldn't believe this was happening.

"What is it, Thor?" I break the silence.

"We found Loki."

The constant pain I've felt for a year has vanished and the fading hope I held on to for so long has come back. My body starts to quiver. I can feel my breathing quicken and I don't know if I should cry or smile. I must've been scaring Thor and Balder so they've sat me down on my bed fanning me with a book. I grab Thor's wrist.

"Where is he?" My voice cracks and Thor orders Balder to stop fanning me.

"We traced him on Midgard. I'm going to go get him."

"I'm coming with you." I laugh a little and get up and head for the door, Balder grabs my hand.

"Odin only has enough power to summon one person and it's dark magic. We don't know how it would affect you."

"Bring him back safely and quickly." I hug Thor tightly.

"Balder can I speak with you alone for a moment?" Thor asks him and Balder nods and they leave the room.

I was so ecstatic for Loki's revival I've forgotten Balder.

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"How can Odin only send you? How could he bring both of you back?" Balder asks Thor.

"I had to lie. She couldn't come. Loki must be under a spell, he was causing chaos on Midgard; many mortals died." Thor says and Balder eyes fill with fear. He wondered how innocent Loki could've done something like this. He must've been under some kind of spell it was so unlike Loki to ever hurt anything.

"I know you've grown to love her. I can see it in your eyes but you have to let her decide what she wants. You can't force her, she's so independent." They both smile for they both know Sigyn like they've known each other for a lifetime already.

"I love her. I want the best for her." Balder and Thor exchange a hug and Thor leaves.

To Balder this was a miraculous tragedy.

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