Devotion For Salvation (LokixSigyn) ON HOLD

Chapter 16

Ten months now since I've fallen asleep. I am fully healthy both physically and mentally but my emotional state has brought on a depression, the kind you wake up every morning pretending you're okay but in reality you just want to die.

It was a lot to take in. Frigga only told me about Loki's passing, but not how. Thankfully, Sylia and Deveah were able to tell me what they knew. The bifrost collapsed into an abyss and Loki fell into it. Thor was there as well, but he refuses to talk to me or anyone else besides his parents and Heimdall checking if he could see Loki, or that mortal girl, Jane. He won't be seeing her for a very long time now. But that's nothing compared to my grief. The bifrost can be fixed, but Loki can't be brought back to life.

I try finding Loki myself, but I am not strong enough, and judging by Heimdall's experience I won't get strong enough to find him.

I can only see no more than two days in the future, I can see in the past and I can also see what is currently going on from only a few meters away.

I wake up every morning unhappy but still hopeful I will find Loki.

He only lives in my memories for now. I can see them much more vividly and I can notice details I haven't before.

"Sigyn?" Deveah snaps her fingers in front face, I notice but I don't pay attention. I pretend to stay in my daze. I really don't want to be with anyone right now.

"Sigyn, you flinched I know you can hear me now." She laughs and waves towards the warriors three with a huge smile.

"You look ridiculous." I raise an eyebrow.

"Fandrals' asked for my presence at the royal feast tomorrow. Are you going as well?" Deveah asks and jumps around as Fandral makes his way towards us.

I miss being in love...

"Hello, Fandral." I nod, trying to give a convincing smile but I probably look terrible.

"How do you do, lady Sigyn?" Fandral curtsies and flashes his pearly smile.

"Spectacular." I sit back and continue to my daydreaming. All their love has gotten me lonesome.

"Sigyn, I would love for you to join us for the feast tomorrow. It's in celebration of th-"

"I do not care for what they are celebrating! I just want to be alone, please." I clench my fists and bite my lip, suppressing the tears.

Deveah and Fandral whisper into each others ears and Deveah nods, waves at me and murmurs "bye". Fandral kneels down in fromt of me, staring into my eyes. I know he's looking for my masked sadness.

"I want you to know from the bottom of my heart I am sorry for your loss. I wasn't close with Loki but there is a part of me that mourns for him greatly. You need to talk to someone whom shared relations as close as you two were. Thor or Frigga for example." Fandral kisses my forehead and I am left with a shock of relief that he did notice my sadness. He said all the right words. "Frigga promised to help you and you need all the comfort she can offer."

"Thank you, Fandral. Deveah is lucky to have someone as compassionate as you."

"Anytime, Siggy."

The rest of my evening isn't as horrible as it usually is. But I'm still not ready to be talking about this with Frigga or Thor. I doubt he'd want to speak with me.

Maybe it would be good for me to go to a banquet and have a change if scenery for one night. It cannot do any harm.

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I wanted to make this chapter short. I hope thats okay haha. Sigyn is lonesome for her love Loki aww :c Just a reminder this is taken place during Thor, Avengers, and Thor: The Dark World. So it follows the time period and what not. If you have any questions or you just want to say something feel free to comment or message me :3

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