Gone

Chapter 26

It has been two days or so, when Taemin called Jongin that he hid Krystal in his old house in Busan but he released her because he said he cant just imprison her there.
"I wanted to bury her there alive but I burried something else." Taemin laughed outloud from the other line.
"What the hell are you talking about?"
"Just dont think too much. All I can say is she wont bother you anymore."
Jongin put his phone in the counter sighing. Damn Taemin just raped Krystal or what? He cant help but to internally laugh at how clever Taemin is.
He resume making Kyungsoo milk. He put the warm glass on the tray together with his vitamins.
"Can you just let me do that young master?" Mirae adjomoni was behind him all these time.
He smiled dearly.
"I can do this adjumoni. Dont bother anymore." He said.
"Jongin you were so hurt also. You also need to rest and heal." She followed her walking out from the kitchen.
"Kyungsoo needs me. Besides Im okay now." He replied as they are walking through the stairs.
"Your wounds are still fresh. Dont move too much. You also have to trust Kyungsoo's needs to us sometimes." She said sounds she is not in favor of him doing everything for Kyungsoo.
"Okay. Ill remember that."
He can see her forced smile as she turned downstairs leaving him looking at her as she returned to the kitchen.
Jongin understood that ever since Kyungsoo arrived in this household, she was starting to guard almost everything he do. Maybe because she found him doing almost everything for him.
He put the tray on the table beside Kyungsoo's bed. He sit on the edge and looked at him sleeping.
"Sleeping beauty, wake up now." He said.
"Im awake." Kyungsoo replied smiling. "Do I look like Im sleeping all the time?"
"You look like an angel sleeping." He replied as he helped him to rise.
"I heard you were stabbed like hell. Are you that brainless?"
"Who told you that?"
"Does it matter who? Dont you know I really wanted to kill you right now? How come you are so reckless!"
The taste anger in his voice still sounds endearing to Jongin's ear. He has to let out a sigh for that.
"It wont happen again." He just said defeated.
He held his hand and handed to him his glass of milk.
"Milk or brandy?"
Jongin laughed.
"Wisky."
Kyungsoo finished his milk and take his vitamins as well.
"Sleep early. We are going to somewhere really nice tomorrow."
"I cant see anything so dont bother anymore. Go and rest." Kyungsoo lay back and cover himself with his blanket.
Jongin didnt move but stayed looking at him. He might be so scared right now. Being blind is the worse thing that ever happened to Kyungsoo. He held his hand and kissed them dearly.
"Dont be scared. Im here." He said.
"Jongin, I am not your lover anymore. Im your hyung so stop doing these." He harsly take away his hand from his grip. He can only sigh.
"Okay. Sleep tight." He didnt turned off the lights and just close the door.
Jongin went to his study and poured wine to his glass. He even let the dark to swallow him. With only the light from his phone, he stayed drinking. He hoped the wine will help him to at least numb his heart for the immeasurable amount of pain he endures right now.
His life has been straight and all were ruled by his vision but now, he cant even see his own future. Not anymore.
He looked at Kyungsoo's stolen picture from Hawaii. He was smiling looking at his own reflection in the mirror while testing if Jongin's shirt looks good on him.
"It looks good." He said turning to Jongin.
"You look good with anything but you look better when you have nothing on." He said laughing while hiding his phone.
"You pervert!" Kyungsoo laughed while throwing to him his own pants.
"Come here baby, I want to hug you." Jongin said with his arms wide open.
"No. Catch me if you can!" Kyungsoo teasingly shake his head as he make a small step backwards.
"Dont play with me you little Soo!" Jongin crawls out from the bed and run towards Kyungsoo who is now running to the living room.
"If Ill catch you, you're doomed!" Jongin said as he jumped from the couch to catch Kyungsoo who fell on the other couch. Jongin jumped him there and burried him with his own body.
"I told you." Jongin while pinning Soo's arms above his head.
"I just want to be sexy!"
"Its effective baby."

That flash of happy memories made him even more miserable. His sobs is echoing on the wall of his study as his grip on his class became stronger. Kyungsoo has been the best he even had, not even now, he saw him in the darkness, he still is the love that he thought was perfect. He remembered when his eyes dearly looked into his eyes and how they tear the hardest part of his life, his heart. He has made him into a set of marshmallow from the rock he is before. But hearing him calling him his brother, and him reminding him that he is just his little brother, reminds him how sinful he was, how dirty he made his brother. He heard it from Luhan, dad and even from Kyungsoo, they are long lost siblings.

"Who told you to ruin yourself like this young master?" He heard the old woman's voice from the darkness. He looked up and looked into her face looking down to him. "God, Jongin, I didn't live this life just to see you in this situation. Son, get up and please accept the reality." She leaned and reached his read.

"Adjumoni, why do I feel like dying? Why Im still inlove with him? What did I do wrong?" He cried like a child looking at his nanny asking and hoping she can give him a concrete and convincing answers to his questions.

"Young master please," Her old voice cracked and she is tearing up.

"Adjumoni, can I just die? I wanted to leave here but what will happen to Soo. He needs me." The abundant flow of tears from his eyes now soaking his face all over.

"What is more painful Jongin, that you have lived with a lie or you will be with Kyungsoo forever?" The old lady sit on the chair in front of his table and held his hands firmly.

"What is more painful Adjumoni, that I lived like a stone but when I started to live like a human, I cannot anymore? Kyungsoo has changed me into somebody I thought I am not capable of. How am I gonna accept that I still loved him, I still want to kiss and own him even if he is my brother. Tell me if there is more shameful and painful more than that?"

"I think it's a lot shameful and painful that you are my son, and I sell you to the chairman when you were still a baby."

Jongin hands slipped and have his glass broke as it fell on the floor.