I'm not a coward, just shy (Hogwarts fanfic)

ch 5 -night terrors

I managed to escape the hospital wing the next day. I had already made up my mind. No one will know of my sickness, even if it kills me, even though that might end up being truth.

"Hey Taylor, are you feeling better" Hermione appeared by my side. I simply nodded.

"Yeah, I am fine, I just had a headache and they kept me in over night because I was a little feverish to be safe, but I am good now" It was surprisingly easily to lie to Hermione, as she made an 'oh' sound and accepting the information.  The true was that he was banging like a bass drum, flashes of the future rushing though my mind so fast I was able to tell them about. It was television static, it was easy to ignore once you got used to it but it you tried to tune into it was just random beeps the fizzed in your mind. It you listened to it too much it started to swallow you and it was hard to tell whether the voice you hard were real or in your head.

"Taylor" I jumped, Hermione was staring at me, worry etched across her features. "are you sure you're fine".

"Yeah, I am fine. How are Ron and Harry doing" I said changing the subjected.

"Fine, why don't you ask them yourself"

"Tensions are high at the moment" I rubbed the back of my neck.

"I swear to god, boys are so stubborn" She mutter. I chuckled at her comment.

"You are as wise as ever, now, let's go I am starving" I saw walking toward the great hall where lunch was taking place.

The day went by slowly and I was noticing more and more that whenever the teachers looked at me it was with worried looks. I didn't need nor want their pity. I want to the library, early that morning and took out every book on seeing the future and its affects which were dusty and didn't look wore from use like the other books. Most people didn't believe in seer's which was totally realistic because true seers were rare however it didn't stop people from pretending they could see the future. I was determined to learn more. I had been shocked that this gift would possibly be a risk to my health that I didn't want to heard any more. This I regret now and if I can't find out in the books, I have decided I will have to go and ask Dumbledore.

I was now in my dorm room and I had draw the curtains around the four poster and had picked up the book which I thought would help me the most. It was thin, more like a booklet and looked old and rotten with age. The cover read:

The truth about the inner eye: the affects by Arthur Bengram.

It had a small number 6 on the spine, which meant it was probably a series of books. I remember now that next to this book was others however they were far worse off than this book. One even look liked it had been burned.

"Lumos" I whispered and the end of my wand lit up. I opened the book and scanned the page. It was hand written and the writing was messy and hard to make out. It read:

'Many believe that the inner eye isn't real and this are wizards are con artist, which is true for most, but not all. How do we spot the real from the fake you may ask. It is because with this power comes a cost. This cost is the seer's health. Normally seer's are born with terrible eye sight, some even become blind over time.' I couldn't help be touch my glasses, then the soft flesh under my eye. Part of me didn't want to but I read on.

'Seer's can also suffer from fevers that are far worse them a normal fever for a normal wizard would be. Headaches are also worse from the strain on the brain from the visions that are coming in non-stop. Mrs. Rudy Fleet describe it as like having the radio on in the background and being unable to turn it off. not even voices, like static and you just know things. Like she explained how a muggle named Judy, who wore a purple hat would died today. I myself tracked down a Judy Russel, who was hit by a bus late in the afternoon. She was indeed wearing a purple hat. Another effect of being a seer is insomnia. Mrs. Fleet goings on to explain that sometimes it's so loud, sleeping is impossible. The body, over time becomes weak, and some it their brain that is affected. Since seer's are so rare little research can be done and I have concluded that the affects are different from person to person.'