I'm not a coward, just shy (Hogwarts fanfic)

ch 5- God father

The sorting was long and fairly boring. It wasn't that I didn't care for these 11 year olds start a new and exciting chapter in their lives. It's more like for you have seen it once you have seen it a thousand times. The feast was the normal fantastic food with a hundred different options, but I was sort of put off by Ron spraying everyone within 5 meters with whatever he last shoved in his mouth. I listen animatedly to Hermione as she told me about you summer holiday and the trips she had been on. I could tell that she was trying to push information out of me about Sirius Black or any visions I had had over the summer, however I just played dumb until the food disappeared again and Dumbledore took his post once more.

"Now that we are all feed and watered, I will go over the ground rules for this year" He began, "Mr Filch has add 274 new items to the list of contraband, and the full list can be viewed on the door to Mr Filch's door. As always the Forbidden Forest is forbidden to all students" He glanced over to wear Fred and George were nudging each other. "You will also be aware that this year, Dementor will be outside the Hogwarts grounds and the village of Hogsmeade, for the escapee Sirius Black" Gasps sounded round the hall and I couldn't help but flinch at the name. "However this is just in case and the dementor have Orders to not come into the school grounds. Moving on, I think we already for bed and sleep so we can be bright and ready for a day full of learning. Good night" He nodded and the hall was suddenly alive again with everyone getting up and the prefects trying to get the first years under control.

I myself slipped away for every on and made my way to the seventh floor where Dumbledore's office was. I walked to the statue of a Griffin and muttered cockroach cluster. The Griffin moved to the side and I stepped on the moving spinal stair case. It had been a while since I had been here. I had been petrified the last year and had been out of it the rest of the year. I got to the top of the stair and bang the large knocker of the door twice. After hearing a muffled voice from inside I took my chances and entered the office.

I had always loved Dumbledore's Office. It was a clutter of weird and magical things, from instruments of spindle legged tables to a magic globe of the world the spun at the speed of the plants rotation. Dumbledore sat at his large wooden desk, in my large wooden backed chair.

"Ahhh, Taylor, it is lovely to see you again, do I dare say you had a good summer" He asked his eyebrows. I took my queue and made my way to sit in one of the other chair opposite him.

"I had a bad fever my first week back but it broke after a day...." I trailed off not meeting his eyes. "He's ... back you know" I finally got back. I hear Dumbledore sigh.

"Indeed he is, you have nothing to fear taylo-"

"I don't fear him" I cut Dumbledore off, "I fear becoming like him, becoming like his side of the family" I rung my hands.

"I believe you have meet our new Dense against the dark arts teacher, Professor Remus Lupin" Dumbledore mused quietly.

"Yes, he is going to be a great teacher, one of the best I will ever have." I nodded, feeling that I was right in my gut.

"You know he is a werewolf, I am correct?" Again I nodded. "Do you fear him?" I looked up at him them and I shook my head twice.

"OF course not, He is a kind man. It's not like everyone is monster free. Everyone has a horrible beast inside them, People with Lycanthropy are just forced to show it". Dumbledore chuckled.

"You are wiser that most adult wizards" He magiced himself a cup of tea and slipped at it. "There is something you need to know about Remus Lupin. He used to be a good friend of you biological father and as so he was asked to be your god father" I felt my eyes widen behind my glasses. I had a God father.

"Where was he all these years?" I asked simply, I wasn't as angry as much as I was curious.

"I feared that I couldn't take kind of you", I jumped a foot out of my chair, turning to see that Remus had entered the room unnoticed. "I could either support you financially and for a fear of hurting you with me having lycanthropy." He looked guilty and I now knew the kind of pity he held in his eyes. It is understand able that it would be hard to maintain a job with all the bias against suffers of Lycanthropy. I nodded and smiled at him.

"It is nice to know I have family" I smiled, standing up to face him, "I guess we have to start again. My name is Taylor Fleet, I turn 14 on the 2 of December but I don't celebrate my birthday and I have the curse of the knowing". He looked confused as I stuck out my hand.

"Taylor is a Seer just like his great grandmother, Ruby Fleet", He nodded but didn't ask the question. Simply took a hold of his hand.

"I am Remus Lupin. I like chocolate and book and I am a werewolf" He smiled softly.

"Nice to meet you, I know you're going to be a great teacher".

"I am sure you do".

By the time I got to my dorm room, Dumbledore having given me the password before I left, Everyone was asleep. My mind was buzzing and I didn't feel like sleep, so I got changed into my Pajamas and hoodie. Taking a few battered books which give me all the answers to my Gift, I went to curl up in one of the soft arm chairs. Flicking though the pages, My mind raced with images, Most notable a large black dog and that ripped brown haired doll, from my dream that summer but I couldn't make sense of them and yet I knew. It was like a tooth the stirred in my mouth. So annoying that you couldn't leave it alone. It didn't help that I was starting to feel faint. My head thumped with every flash, and every muscle hurt. My breathing was becoming ragged. I knew it was a probably coming down with another fever. This is my life now.

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sorry for this quick little chapter, I shall try write more next chapter.