I'm not a coward, just shy (Hogwarts fanfic)

ch 6 - Dumbledore's Army

"Hermione Granger, have you lost our mind?" I asked shocked, expecting Ron and Harry to look the same but I figured out quickly they were in on it. She stared at me determined, as I looked at her completely fumbled.
"No, I haven't but I refuse to learn defense magic from a textbook, it's just not how it works. Harry has already same he would be the teacher and we have already gotten a list of people who agree" she pulled out a charmed scroll. Her magic was almost untraceable if not for the static telling me so. I scanned the list that had been pushed under my nose, seeing Ginny, Fred, George,  Luna and Neville had already signed their names.
"Are you kidding me, this has to be breaking so many rules just organizing such a thing, you could be thrown out of school. I thought you were meant to be the level headed one" I hissed under my breath, hoping to God the bookcases didn't have hears, Merlin Knows the paintings do. Hermione looked at me stubbornly.
"Ok, so you have set up this legal club and you somehow do it Umbridge's nose, not to mention her new Slythrin sympathizers, do even have a place to practice." Hermione opened her mouth. "You can't do it in the forest, you'll get yourselves killed" She huffed muttering to herself.
"Don't you know a place?" I jumped as Ron spoke. It was the first time he had spoken.
"Why would I know anywhere" I retorted sounding defensive.
"Well you disappear often enough, You must be going somewhere, you disappear right off the map" He said his anger loosening his lips.
"What map?" I asked.

The room of requirement came to my mind. I had been disappearing to it more and more as Umbridge began to gain more and more power over Hogwarts. The room was no longer a library of books with a roaring fire. It was a field of wild flowers, the room seemed to be impossibly large. a light breeze make the flowers dances, blowing from nowhere. The first time this room appear to me I was shocked. I had such down in the tall grass, waiting for Cedric to appear to me, like in my dream. I had resigned to sit and wait for him in the room, more than once sleeping asleep inside the room and waking up in the early hours of the morning. I didn't want to share my hiding place with anyone. Never mind the all these people. I was a place where I didn't know the future and was fine with that.
"Never mind, we'll tell you later" Harry snapped me back to the present. "Please Taylor, we need somewhere to practice and we aren't stupid. We know you go off somewhere. I beg you Taylor." He didn't plead with me he just look at me. I looked away not able to look into those greens eyes any longer.

What would Cedric do? the question walked silently into my mind. I knew exactly what Cedric would do but my own selfishness for the reason why I couldn't just blurt out my hiding place. Over the years the room of requirement was the put I went to shut out the world. I wasn't stupid enough to believe I was the only person ever to have found the room but selfishly I wanted it to stay mine. Was I really ready to let people into my very mind. To disgrace that beautiful field of wild flowers. The only place I could reach Cedric. The place where he was so close I could almost touch me.

If I kept it secret my place would belong to me and Cedric for a while longer. I could wait for him their and he would be with me if not in body then in spirit. What if I kept it secret. Would I hang onto the idea that if I waited long enough in that field, Cedric would walk up to me, like nothing had ever happened. Was I so scared of the future that I would dig in my heels and live in the past. In some fruitless hope to hold onto his memory. That was all Cedric was now... a memory. One day he might become a ghost stories mothers would scared their children into behaving. Don't step out of line or the Dark lord with come and take you away. What if one day that field grown out of control into the same maze which lead Cedric to his death. No, better that field burned so nice life could spout.
"I think I know a place" I said looking up at the trio in front of me. In the present.

It was weird seeing 20 odd people standing in my room of Requirement. it was no longer a field of wild flowers but a large room with mirror covered walls and form matts on the floor. their was a shelf of books on defense against the dark arts as well as a few training dummies. Ginny eyed the room in wonder.
"When did you find this place?" She asked Looking around the room. Fred and George were close by looking equally amazed.
"Third year" I answered. "It was a time when static was starting to buzz in my mind non stop. I begged for an escape and This room appeared" I smiled down at her. She raised her eyebrow.
"You don't see anything when your in this room?" she asked.
"Not just that, I don't hear anything either, Not a whisper of the future?" Fred and George perked up at this.
"So you don't get any head aches in here" I knew they were thinking passed headaches.
"No nightmares, no headaches or nose bleeds. The future can't reach me in here" They seemed to beam at me, Ginny looking confused about why they would be so happy about this.

Our attention was all drawn to Harry when he clapped his hands together twice. The sounds vibrating off the stone walls.
"Ok, Let's begin".