Hate the Player and the Game

chapter 53

Chapter 53

Diamond

           I puffed on the cigarette and let the smoke flow out of my mouth freely. It didn't do good like a good blunt did, but it was a good stress reliever. I used to smoke allot after Royale and Ludah died. I didn't know what to do with myself and cigarettes helped me get through it. I put the cigarette in the ashtray and continued to count my money. I was sitting in my old apartment back in Queens that Gay Tony had bought for me when I was first released from the group home. When I first stepped foot in this apartment, I couldn't believe how long it had been since I had been here. I started crying when I saw the old furniture and that my old guns were right where I had left them. I even saw some of my old clothes sitting in the closet. Clothes that were way too small for me now. My breast had grown, my hips had gotten wider, my thy's had gotten thicker and when I tried on some old pants, I couldn't get my ass in them because of how big it was. I donated the clothes to the salvation army and started to unpack my bags and settle in. I remembered when the twins and I had that fight in my living room or when me, Giovanna, and Meyelda would just sit around and chill. I couldn't believe that all of that was about five to six years ago. It had been about a week since I had left Miami and I was back in New York hustling. I was back in Queens, my home town and it felt good. I felt relaxed in my cozy apartment that I hadn't been to in years. I was nineteen years old when I left this place, but Gay Tony still had high hopes that I would come back to New York and I finally did. I grabbed my glass of Hennessy and took a sip. The ice clinked and clanked as I drank. I put the glass down and put my forehead in my hands. I hadn't had sex since the day I left Miami and I was tired of being alone. I knew that some big dick was all I needed at this point. I had lost touch with Rashad and that one nigga Dookah so I couldn't just call them up and tell them to come over like I used to. Times had changed and we all had definitely moved on. I had to realize that I wasn't a kid anymore. I was twenty-five years old and I needed to grow up. Sex wasn't the cure to everything. I took another hit of my cigarette, I knew that as much drinking as I did, that these were signs of depression.
          It was almost eleven o'clock in the morning. The sun shone directly into my living room and so far it had been a beautiful day. Just then my cell phone started to ring. It was Chardenay. I picked it up and put it to my ear. "Hello". I said taking a long pull from my cigarette.

"Ayye girl. Long time no see". She said. I had shot her a text about me moving back to Queens and was wondering if she was in town. "It's been about three years since the last time I saw you".

"What up girl? How ya been"? I asked.

"I just want to see you.. I got allot to tell you.......I got important shit to tell you". Her voice sounded shaky like she had been crying and I knew that it couldn't have been good. "Meet me at my hotel room".

"What are you doing here? You taking a break from the video world"?

"I got a video shoot in a couple days. I flew in early".

"Oh okay. I see you doin' it big. I'll meet you in an hour". I said. Chardenay gave me the directions to her hotel, then I went to go take a shower. Summer was coming to an end in New York so I dressed myself in a brown long sleeved blouse, plaid skinny pants that matched, and brown stilleto boots. I did my hair into an up-do, sprayed perfume all on my body, glossed my lips, and put Gucci shades on my face. I then headed out to my new Mercedes Benz truck that I had bought recently. I drove to a Star Bucks to get a Latte then drove to Chardenay's hotel. To be dressed as casually as I was, I still looked good as I switched my ass into the lobby. I got on an elevator and rode it as it climbed to the tenth floor. I then got off and went to her room. When she opened the door, I wanted to jump on her with excitement, but instead I just hugged her. She let me come into the room and when I looked around, it wasn't much. I wondered what happened to her career that she was reduced to a regular hotel room instead of a deluxe suite. She closed the door behind me and I looked her over. Her dark brown skin hadn't changed a bit, but her boobs were huge, and her weave was long and blonde. She looked good in her red silk robe with black laced trim. "I'm so glad to see you". I said hugging her again. It looked like she had been crying and tears were still rolling down her cheeks. I hugged her tighter. It had been a long time and it felt good to be holding my old best friend again. I then pulled away then went to go sit on the bed. She followed me and then I saw a small little boy asleep on it. He was so cute with brown skin and he looked just like someone I used to know. "Chardenay.....who is this"? I asked pointing to the little boy.