Diary Of A Twisted Mind

September 20, 2012

I feel myself slipping away more and more as time goes on. I want to escape this hell they like to call a 'psychiatic ward'. I want to escape the stares they give me as they remind me that I'm not normal. I know I'm not normal. I just want somebody to love me for who I am and not just give me some fake and plastic smile as they tell me that everything is going to be ok. Do you miss me? Cause I miss you. Have you moved on to another guy? My entire existence revolves around you. Your the reason I'm still fighting to stay alive now. I would have no other reason to live. No family, no friends, only you to keep me poised on the cliff face between sanity and insanity, but I'm slowly slipping out of your grasp. Out of your warm comforting hands as I fall deeper and deeper into the black hole until it swallows me whole. Just like your eyes did when we would stare at each other in the coffee shop that we always went to. Our hands intertwined secretly underneath the table so our fans wouldn't see us when they occasionally walked past the window. Or the time when we went stargazing after our 1 year anniversary of us dating back in 2009. But now its all slipped away. Sucked into the black hole just like everything else that I held dear.