I Hate This Part(Zayn Malik)

Chapter 11-Monica

“If I said I wished you the best, I was lying.

Waking up just brings me down, down.

Cause every morning you are nowhere to be found, found

And my bed is half empty not half full” Alex belts walking around my house to get some cereal. I admit, this is an amazing song. Alex is currently obsessed with this band’s music which Kaleb despises. He left sometime after Zayn skyped me. Alex is taking the opportunity to blare her music because he doesn’t let her. I don’t stop her either.

“Kaleb’s calling me,” she tells me and I just nod.

“That’s fine, I need to go and call my boyfriend too,” I tell her and she shrieks but then nods. I walk back to my bedroom, leaving her in my living room, and call his number. I wait impatiently for him to answer. He finally does though on the third ring.

“Hello?” I hear his familiar voice say on the phone, confused and tired. I hope I didn’t wake him but I don’t have an option.

“hi Zayn. Can we talk?” I ask him.

“Course babe. What about?” he asks me and I can tell that he is worried.

“I’m sorry for flipping out last night and I am willing to try and understand if you’ll explain,” I sigh, meaning it. I am kind of harsh and assuming but I want to try for Zayn.

“oh um, don’t you think that we can wait until we can see each other in person? I mean, we will be seeing each other next week,” he asks. That’s too long for me. This needs to be resolved now.

“Zayn! Our break was changed for only a day! We’re leaving L.A. in about three days to start our South American tour. We’re going to Puerto Rico!” I hear Liam say excitedly in the back ground.

“Thanks for informing me Liam, but can you leave…I’m um talking to a very good friend,” he tells him and my heart sinks a bit. At least he didn’t call me his mom or only a friend.

“Alright mate,” he says. We sit there in silence until I hear a door close.

“I guess we can talk now,” he says after a minute. I can tell he is disappointed. I would have made him talk now anyways, at least I would think that.

“You’ll have fun in Puerto Rico. I guarantee it,” I tell him.

“You’re from there aren’t you?” he asks me.

“yeah,” I respond thinking of the flag I have hanging in my living room on the wall.

“I’ll be thinking about you the whole time I’m there especially,” he says and I smile a bit.

“About that talk,” I remind him changing the topic because I’m not used to guys saying sweet things about me. Zayn’s the first one to find interest in me since Brian and his friend Affan which is all the way back in my sophomore year. They were the only ones to like me and they definitely weren’t attractive.

“Oh yeah. Um. Like. You’re different than others Monica. You have such a big heart and I adore that about you. It’s just that your heart is too big,” he says cautiously and my heart drops. Is he going to break up with me? That cant be right. We were just having a good time and he was complimenting me. Maybe it was too much to think that a popstar might like me.

“Excuse me?” I ask. Im still going to defend myself. I just want to know if I heard him right, too.

“Don’t take that as a bad thing love. You are cruel too. You hate so many people but you’re still nice to everyone that you hate no matter how cruel they are too you. You’re always trying to please everyone even though you know that you shouldn’t. you’re too good for your own good and I want to wait ‘til we are more stable and secure for us to start making our relationship public. If I did now, you might not think that it’s worth it because the fans will tear you apart. You’d leave me. Please, lets wait until we are more stable,” he begs. I can tell he is being sincere and that he is also right but I don’t want to admit that just yet. So, we just sit in silence.