One Direction Imagines and Preferences

What About Now

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

A year and 2 months it's been. Since that night, that fight. We figured things between us wouldn't work out. I said I couldn't wait around for you while you lived your life, traveling the world. You said you wouldn't let me accept my job offer overseas. That night, we screamed at the top of our lungs. That night, we both cried through our loud voices. That night, you walked out, and didn't come back. That night, you walked out of my life. It's been long, and I'm still not over you.

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

So many beautiful memories we had in our three year relationship. We were too close, we just couldn't deal with the distance any longer however. But those moments where you would just hold me, laugh with me, be with me..those were the better days. The times you taught me soccer. The times you cooked with me. The times we snuggled up on the couch. The times we fooled around like lovesick people. Every moment I spent with you was made into a beautiful memory, and I cherish those moments to this day. The kisses I could never resist. Running my fingers through your hair to pull you closer to me, never denying your close proximity. The way you would sing me to sleep when I was having a rough time trying to calm down. Damn, do I miss it all.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

I know it's a damn fact I still love you. Your first love never goes away. I could never forget you that easily. What if we just talked out or problems that night instead of having a screaming match? Would we still be together? Would you still love me? Do you still love me? It's probably too late now. You're probably with another woman who will treat you right, respect your job unlike me and not get a job overseas like I did. She'll love you with all her heart..but that is something I did.

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

You could still save me from the broken heart that I have from you.

Sighing loudly, you turned up your music, the song now on full blast in your ears. You slowly walked down the sidewalk, avoiding eye contact with everyone as you looked at the scenery. It was 6 o clock in the morning on a random Tuesday in the middle of Boston. Kids would be getting up for school, adults just getting to work. You however just couldn't sleep and felt the need to somewhat exercise, but in jeans and a sweater. It was the beginning of spring and you figured you could look at least decent so you could stop and get some coffee and a muffin for breakfast.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

God fucking damnit. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think of him. His touch, his laugh, his eyes, his smile, his personality. His light touch, gentle as if you were the most fragile thing. The laugh that would echo around the room, causing a smile to breakout on your face. His cerulean blue eyes that would stare into yours with such adoration, love, happiness. The smile that would make your heart flutter, stomach twist, body tingle. The carefree, romantic, funny, kind, gentle, personality that honestly made you fall head over heels for this kid. You don't understand how much I am in love with him. No one does. They expect me to move on so easily from a 3 year relationship, but you can't forget your first love.
Wiping a single tear that escaped my eye from my red cheek, I sniffed and held my head up high, walking towards the coffee shop. You said you wouldn't cry anymore over him, Y/N. It's been a year and two months, it's over, deal with it. You'll never get his kisses again. You'll never hear his compliments to you again. Hearing him call you beautiful, Princess, saying I love you.
You decided to take a seat on a nearby bench for a bit. You needed a breather, you needed to calm down. You're okay, you just need a quick break from the outside world. 6:24 am, let's just people watch in silence. Enjoy the flowers blooming. Don't think of him, you've been doing so well. I think it's this damn song.