He's taken, I'm broken (Louis Tomlinson)

Chapter 31

Louis was still holding my right hand in his very tightly. When I realized that he wasn't awake anymore i started screaming and shaking him.

"LOUIS. WAKE UP. YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME. PLEASE LOUIS. DON'T LEAVE ME." I shook his body, trying to get him to wake up.

I could hear the ambulance. It was getting closer and closer. But I knew it would be too late. I screamed at Louis again but got no response.

"LOUIS. PLEASE LISTEN TO ME. YOU NEED TO STAY ALIVE. PLEASE. FOR ME." Why wasn't he responding? I took hold of his left hand trying to feel the pulse. But there was none.

No! You can't leave me. NO LOUIS!

"WAKE UP. WAKE UP LOUIS. THIS ISN'T A JOKE YOU'RE SCARING ME. WAKE UP. NO!" I shook him so violently that I heard a crack. Shit.

Suddenly someone grabbed me from behind. The person put his hands under my shoulders and tried to drag me away from Louis.

No! What is he doing?

"Leave me alone. No. Let go. LET GO. I WANT TO STAY WITH HIM." I wriggled trying to get out of the strong grip. I turned my head a little to see who was holding me. Liam!

"Liam please. I want to be with him. I c.. I can't feel his pulse Liam. Is he... Is he dead? Please tell me he's not dead. Liam he's not dead is he?"

He didn't answer me. Just continued dragging me away. Then I realized something.

Oh my god. Louis had died because of me. I had killed him.

"I KILLED HIM. THIS IS ALL MY FAULT. WHY DID HE HAVE TO COME IN THE MIDDLE. I WAS THE ONE SUPPOSED TO BE LYING LIKE THAT. I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD. I KILLED HIM LIAM. I KILLED HIM." I was crying so much that I had started hiccuping too.

"No you didn-"

I cut him off. "I killed him. I killed him. I killed him." I kept on repeating. It was like a chain of thought. Torturing me. I had killed him. I had killed Louis.

"He's breathing." Someone shouted.

My head whipped towards the source of the sound. It was Harry. He was bent down beside Louis, tears flowing down his cheeks.

"What?"

"He's alive Lauren." The ambulance arrived as soon as the words left Harry's mouth. Two men in white uniform got out of the back of the ambulance. They pulled a stretcher out with them. They put it beside Louis and gently picked him up and put him on it.

As soon as I realized that they were taking him away, I kicked Liam and bit his arm. He let go immediately. I ran towards the ambulance. They had lifted Louis inside already. I started to climb inside but one of the paramedics stopped me.

"Miss you can't come in here."

"What? What the fuck do you mean by that? I'm his friend. LET ME IN." I screamed.

"I'm sorry but only family is allowed."

"What kind of a stupid rule is that?"

"I'm sorry. Now please step aside."

"No. PLEASE. You don't understand. I need to be there with him. Please."

"I'm sorry miss bu-"

"I won't let you leave if you don't let me go with you. Please. Please let me come." I begged.

He ignored me and climbed into the ambulance. He was about to close the door but I put my hand in between. I screamed when the door closed and my fingers were crushed between it. The paramedic opened it back and looked down at me, alarmed.