A Family Divided (Bucky Barnes)

Chapter 12

Rey's Point of View: I slowly opened my eyes and was blinded by a bright light. Once I blinked a few times, things cleared up and I noticed I was in a hospital bed, I felt a weight on my hand, I looked over and Bucky was holding my hand, leaning back in his chair asleep.

"Bucky?" I called, my voice was raspy and dry. He slowly opened his eyes and looked over to me. "How long have you been awake?" He asked

"I just woke up, how long was I out for?"

"You lost a lot of blood they said, so the doctors put you to sleep for a few days. How do you feel?"

How did I feel? Physically, I was fine. But mentally, oh boy, there was a lot racing through my head. "I'm fine." I said and he rolled his eyes.

"I'm not stupid..." He said and stood up, he took a sip of a water bottle and I looked around. "Where's Steve?" I asked.

"He's breaking the rest of your friends out of the prison cell."

"Alone?"

"I offered to go with him, but I won't be much help with only one arm... Plus, I wanted to make sure you were okay." He said.

"Do you want another arm? I'm sort of a genius I could make you one." I offered. "I sort of like not having it, it makes me feel like Bucky, not the Winter Soldier."

"As long as you're happy." I smiled and he sat at the end of my bed. "I was thinking, about-" he paused and took a deep breath. "I was thinking, since I don't even have control of my own mind, that I should go back to cyro-freeze. At least, until I know Hydra is out of my mind for good."

He and I just started talking again and he wants to go. I was shocked to say the least

"Well. I don't know what to say" I said and he grabbed my hand. "I just wanted to see how you felt about it, it's the safest way to keep everyone protected from me. I'll let you think it over, bye."

He said and stood up then walked right out before I could catch him.

"What the hell?" I scoffed and ripped the IV out of my arm. I needed a break, I needed to get out of here right now. I needed to think a lot of things over.

I saw my clothes folded in the bottom corner of a chair. I changed into them and ripped the sling off my arm.

I washed my face with water and put my hair into a bun.

I walked out of the hospital with absolutely no one stopping me. Outside I bumped into someone, T'Challa turned around.

"Where are you going?"

"I just want a drink, I promise I'll come back here." I said and was practically begging. I knew he felt some sympathy for me, when he sighed.

"Go, if you aren't back, I'll just find you myself." He said and handed me some Wakandan money.

"Thank you, I promise I'll stay out of trouble." I said and he smiled. "Oh, and tell Barnes I'm safe!" I shouted before walking down the crowded streets to the closest bar.

I walked into a pretty crowded bar. I sat down at the bar and drinks started pouring in, I kept drinking one after another.

I didn't want Bucky to go, I was very upset. He and I were close, and he's the first guy I've ever really liked and now he wants to go. I don't even know that to do

So I drank, and I was ignoring these idiots catcalling me and buying me drinks until someone sat next to me

I knew who it was immediately by the old rugged shoes

"I'm guessing he told you?" Steve asked

"Yes." I said and took another shot. "You like him?" Steve asked. "Yes." I said again and he took a bottle from behind the counter and poured him and I a drink.

"He likes you, he just wants to protect you. He won't shut up about you."

"Can we not talk about him? Did you get the rest of the team?" I asked and he nodded.

"Yeah, Stark put them in a bad place. They practically all hate him now. I don't know what to do."

"You always figure it out."

"This time, I'm not sure what to do though."

I felt sick, and wanted to go back to my apartment in New York, but I can't.

I want to be with Bucky, but I can't

I feel like I should've signed the accords if it would've saved me all this trouble.

"How about we start fixing the problem, by going to bed." I said and Steve nodded. "How long have you been here?" He asked

"A few hours." I said.

"God Rey, does Bucky even know?" "Nope" I said.  Steve helped me stand and walked us back to T'Challa's home

I felt so disgusting, like I needed a long shower. As soon as we walked through the doors Steve put me down, I opened my eyes and Bucky ran up to my and pulled me into a very tight hug.

"You scared me shitless, don't ever do that again." Bucky said and I rolled my eyes. "I told T'Challa to tell you where I went."

"Where even did you go? You smell like alcohol." I could tell he was upset

"Steve and I were at the bar."

"Rey....." He said and put his hand on my cheek and tried to brush some of he hair away but I pushed his hand off.

"I need to go to bed." I said and left. I heard him calling for me but I scurried back up to my room.

I sat on the hospital bed and closed the door, then locked it.

Bucky was going to be frozen for who knows how long so I don't want to get close to him, because every single time I get close to someone, they leave me.

So if I ignore him, it will make it all easier on me.