_MY JOURNEY TO LOVE_(boyXboy)(SLOW UPDATE)

CHAPTER 8- Tears, Regrets

Hello..bale,itong chapter po na to ay about sa nangyare '1 day after umalis ni Kyle.Aryt??

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[Byrans' POV]

Time check.

9:05pm

I'm on my way home now.Ngayon lang ako ulit makaka uwi sa bahay namin. Masyado kasi akong maraming iniisip lately.

Andyan yung tungkol kay Anna, ever since nung gabing yun, wala na akong narinig sa kanya. She just....disappeared.

Sinubukan ko  siyang puntahan sa tinutuluyan niyang boarding house pero ang sabi ng landlady niya ay umalis na raw at di daw sinabi kung saan pupunta.

She also resigned from the Hospital and vanished without a trace, which makes it more difficult to find her.

(Oh ngayon,hahanap-hanapin mo siya..tsk.tsk.tsk.)

(O_O)??!!

Where the hell did that came from?? Aish, I must be losing it.

Anyway, as I was saying, hinahanap  ko pa rin si Anna, hoping that I can explain things to her. 

Sadyang hindi pa kasi talaga ngayon ang tamang panahon para magkapamilya ako. Pero it doesn't mean na hindi ko papanagutan ang bata. Ang baby ko...haaaiiissshhh!!!! Everything's so complicated right noW!

I keep on hoping na magkita ulit kami ni Anna  so that Ican explain my side and that we can clear things up between us.

Yes, mula nung umalis si Anna, na realize ko na...I can't live without her. Noong una, I really don't believe in love. But everything changed when I met her. Heck, she is the first girl that I've had sex without using protection!

Pero dahil na nga sa mga complications sa buhay ko, Anna and I entered in a relationship without any commitment, and I thought she is very fine with that set-up. Ayoko muna kasi magkaroon ng commitment sa ibang tao  dahil natatakot akong baka hindi pa ako handa sa responsibilidad na kaakibat ng commitment na iyon. 

But as we go further with our Relationship, my feelings for her started to deepen..

At first, I tried to fight this blooming feeling inside me because I know that it would only mean another complication in my already complicated life.

Pero dumating yung time na inamin ko na rin sa sarili ko na mahal ko na nga si Anna. pero I am still afraid to tell her that because she might expect more that what I can give, and I'm afraid that I won't meet her expectations..

Nung gabing yun, I was about to tell her that I love her so that she will have the assurance and peace of mind..pero bigla kong naisip ang mga consequncesat responsibilities na kaakibat kapag sinabi ko yun. Kaya I just kept my mouth shut.

And that was the biggest MISTAKE I probably made in my Life. Antanga-tanga ko!

At ngayon, nahihirapan na akong hanapin muli si Anna.*sssiiiiiggghhh*

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Sa pag-iisip ko sa mga nangyari sa amin ni Anna ay di ko namalayan na andito na pala ako sa tapat ng bahay.*Sigh* panibagong set nanaman ng problema.

As I entered the house, nagtaka ako kasi kapag ganitong oras, usually ay bukas pa ang ilaw sa sala, dahil gustung-gusto ni bunso na doon mag study habang hinihintay ako.