Beaten

I'll Stand by You

~ Sapphire's P.O.V. ~

I didn't do it. I swear i didn't. It was an accident.

I can see the way everyone is looking at me. They all want to know what happened back in that room. It's not that i don't remember, but I can't tell them though, i can't to that. 

She's still my mom.

She didn't mean to stab me, i fell. After i tried taking the knife from her and preventing her from hurting herself again... i tripped.

Before i knew it i was bleeding too.

She had come to apologize, begging me to take it out on her. She wanted me to use the knife against her. 

How could i? How could i do that to her?

I knew my family wasn't perfect, or that we weren't even a family at all, but to have her beg like that made me realize how really messed up we really were.

She's lost her senses, and my dad... well he probably has too.

They moved me to another hospital room now, its much smaller but this one has more windows which im glad for. Aiden keeps coming in once in a while, i just cant seem to look at him and so i pretend too be asleep.

I know he means well, but sometimes i wish he would just give up and leave. 

The police gave up on me and moved on to my mom, but i think shes worse than me. She clearly remembers everything too im sure. But lets face it why would someone want to relive that moment again.

"Your'e awake"

I turn to the voice and see him standing there. He looks tired, dark bags under his eyes, offering me a small smile. Making a lump form in my throat

"Aiden" i whisper, turning back to the window.

I hear him walk closer, pulling out a chair and taking a seat.

"You've been out for a couple of days now" 

It's obvious how tired he really is just by the tone in his words. I wish i had never met him, therefore he wouldn't have to suffer alongside me.

"You're mom is going to be transferred to a prison in the next few days. She's being charged with multiple felonies including child abuse" the bed dipped as he settled on the edge of the bed waiting for me to answer.

"S, you have to say something, they're saying you might be trialed for attempted murder. You need to say something!"

Murder? They don't even know what happened! Yet, if i say something my mom could end up getting a harsher punishment and as much as i want her too i wouldnt be able to live with myself if i caused her that knowing it was all an accident.

"Sapphire! are you even listening!? Get it together! your mom isnt helping you at all! she's accusing you of stabbing her!" He throws the pitcher of water on the floor while pacing back and forth mumbling incoherent things.

i turn around and face him begging with my eyes for him to give up on me.

"She's still my mom Aiden... maybe i even deserve a punishment for having being born to a family like mine...  Think of it, my own mother didn't even want me in the end... and now maybe i dont even really deserve happiness..."

He laughs humorlessly while coming closer to me. He kneels down grabbing my hand.

"I promise you S, even though you had a crappy life before it'll soon change for the better. As for your mom... dont worry anymore she'll get what she deserves. Because in the end i wont let anything else happen to you."

"I know you have your reasons for keeping quiet about that night, so dont worry okay... i'll stand by you."

He's so close to me right now that memories start feeling my mind and i realize how much i actually like him. Yet, i cant possibly imagine us ever being together even after all of this.

"Aiden... are they really going to charge me for... murder?"

Tears threaten to leave my eyes but i bite my lip to keep them in. Aiden leans in closer so that his breath is touching my skin. Im suddenly nervous as hes dangerously close to my lips, and my eyes automatically wander to his. My heart becomes a mess thumping against me and suddenly i really want him to hold me. I wanted to forget everything that has happened. All the tears, the pain, the horrible nights i spent with a man who i thought was my father, all those days where my own mother didn't acknowledge me as her daughter and turned a blind eye against everything. All i wanted was this moment just me and him...

However, nothing happens. 

He leans towards my ear and whispers something. Just one sentence that makes me freeze. A sentence that makes me realize what he thinks of me.

One sentence that kills me a little inside.

One sentence that makes me shrink back and stare at him in disbelief.

One sentence that should sound comforting but only breaks my heart.

A sentence which makes him seem that hes okay with what happened.

I look at him as he holds my hand tighter and he looks down on my with concern as he repeats what he said.

"I don't care what you did back there, I won't ever let them find that knife..."

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Author's note

I know it's been ages! but im back now, and i am planing  on updating now so whitin the next few weeks all my stories should have an updated chapter!

If i see that some aren't worth updating anymore i will just remove them, and continue those that are anyways i hope you all enjoy this short chapter! 

~C