Death Note: Life Note

Special

A/N: thank you so much for 50K reads! For this, I have written a collection of one shot chapters and put them into this chapter for you to read an enjoy :3 the epilogue will be posted tomorrow :3 

Place when Mello walks Benihime home after she brings him back. (This was originally going to be their first kiss, but I scrapped it and never used it. I saved it in case I wanted to use it in the future. I wrote this a few weeks ago so it includes notes of what I wanted to do with the chapter, like when I was supposed to start a new chapter or when I should save a part for the end etc., you'll understand what I mean towards the end)

Mello suddenly tugs on my arm – pulling me to him. His hand finds its way to my cheek, the other wrapping itself around my waist. I look up into his eyes in shock and realise how close he is. My breath gets caught in my throat. What is he doing? He leans down, his face inching closer towards mine before his lips brush against my own. My eyes widen in surprise before I shut them and allow the feeling of his lips brushing against mine to take over my mind.

Something sparks through me and I find my arms wrapping themselves around his neck. His lips descend down onto mine once more, pressing a firmer kiss onto my lips. I move my lips against his as I kiss him back. I'm silently praying that I'm not a crappy kisser, considering I've had no experience.

He moves his hand and tangles his fingers into my hair as our lips dance together.

I break the kiss and I gasp for breath. He pulls away from me and looks into my eyes apologetically.

"I'm sorry, Beni." He says and begins to turn. I grab his arm, halting his actions.

"Don't apologise." I mumble and look down at my hand as my grip on his arm tightens. He turns to face me and I look up at him. Our eyes lock and I feel my face heat up.

"Why not?" He asks curiously. His eyes searching mine for the answers. I blush even deeper with realisation.

"Because I love you, Mello."

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"You don't love me. You just think you do because you've been stuck with me for a while. I kidnapped you. You should hate me." Mello says darkly. He rips his arm from my grip. He looks at me, his eyes full of disgust.

"But I don't hate you!" I protest. "I haven't forgiven you for kidnapping me!" Tears begin to run down my cheeks. I clench my hands into fists and stare down at the floor. "You kissed me! You must feel something for me." I look up into his blue eyes, anger coursing through my veins when I see the disgust still written all over his face. "You manipulated me! You kissed me for the hell of it! You didn't consider how I felt!" I yell. I slam my fists into his chest and continue to cry. "You're right! I don't love you! I couldn't love an arrogant bastard like you!" I push my way around him and run off, not knowing where I am going, not caring where I'm going. As long as it's far away from Mello. Far away from everything.

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(Insert this towards the end of the chapter) Mello's POV

I watch as the girl runs off. My heart still fluttering at her words. Someone like her loves me. I don't believe it. She can't love me, can she? I shouldn't be capable of falling in love either. I've killed people. I'm too good for love anyway. I don't need it.

Anyway, she can't love me. She hates me. I took her away from the stupid brat, Near. I was selfish and used her to get closer to capturing Kira. Not that I feel bad for that, since my goal is to beat Near and capture Kira before he does.

I love Benihime and I didn't tell her. I couldn't tell her. A part of me wishes I told her.

I shove my hands in my pockets and make my way to my hotel room.