Why does this happen to me? I always ruin stuff. I always find a way to screw things up. For once I had something in my grasp, but because of how stupid I am I didn't even realize that I was so close. I miss everything that I had. God these last few months have hurt me, but I'm trying my best to be happy. Guess I should just accept things how they are.
But I don't want to accept it. I wanna change these past few months. I want to fix the multiple wrongs and make them right again. But I can't change the past.
I can't change the past, but I can change the future.
Sorry this was so sad and sloppy and cringey. I just want to vent this out.
