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33 - Third wheel
"That's enough." Mariin niyang sinabi. Ramdam ko ang mga labi niya sa aking leeg. "Stop. That's already enough..."
"Sprite..."
Stop holding me like this. Stop holding me like you won't let me go...
"Because of what you said... I think, I really deserve my chance, Kristelle. Let me show you what you deserve. Let me love you. Please—"
"Don't you understand what I just said? I just told you what really happened! Kaya hindi kita maibigyan ng chance... That's why I'm fucking scared to give you that chance dahil sa nangyari! Look what happened with Miguel and I. Look where it brought us. We can't even talk casually after what happened and we used to be good friends! Nasayang lang ang friendship, nasayang ang invested feelings! Nasayang lahat!"
"I'm not Miguel, Kits. You can't compare me to that ass!" He snapped. "Risk, Kristelle. C'mon, babe. Risk with me." Nagmamakaawa niyang tugon. "Stop being scared. I won't let you fall on your own. We will fall together. C'mon... Please just give me a try... Give us a try..."
"Hindi mo talaga naiintindihan ano?" I exasperatedly said. "This isn't just about my past, Sprite. Oo. Inapektuhan 'non ang pananaw ko when it comes to relationships. But hindi lang 'to tungkol doon. Sa tingin mo ba ang past ko lang talaga ang iniisip ko? You think that's the only reason why I'm so scared?"
I'm also thinking about the future.
Our future.
"Hindi ko talaga maintindihan, Kristelle. So tell me."
"Wala din tayong patutunguhan if we continue this. Masasayang lang--"
"Bakit mo ba laging pinapangunahan ang nararamdaman ko? We don't even know what the future holds. So why are you so adamant that no good will happen—"
"Sprite. You're Chinese and I'm not!" I exclaimed. "It's so fucking obvious. You can't have a relationship with me!" Nang sabihin ko yun ay natahimik din siya.
"'Yan... Yan ba ang iniisip mo all this time?" He asked harshly.
"Yes. I've been thinking what are future's going to be like. Ayokong pumasok sa isang relasyon just for the sake of it. If I choose to be in a relationship. I want it to last, Sprite. And you know obviously we can't have that."
"Why do you think so lowly of me?" He muttered, kita ko ang sakit sa kaniyang mga mata. Nasasaktan siya dahil ang baba ng tingin ko sa kaniya.
"No, Sprite. I'm just being realistic." I explained. "Hindi na ako pabata... Fine, I'm just nineteen but... I don't want to play around here anymore... I want to be happy with someone that I'm sure will stay. Nasaktan na ako dati.. I don't want to experience the same pain again."
"Do you even think that I will confess to you kung hindi ko naisip ang mga yan?" He asked. "Do you think I'm that inconsiderate and stupid to ask for a chance na di ko kayang panindigan?" Nang di ako sumagot ay narinig ko siyang huminga ng malalim. "You think so lowly of me yet you don't know me that well..."
