Do I have to?

Chapter 33

Jess p.o.v

I'm so sad. I don't wanna leave. I'm going to miss Jacob and hun- , well a lot of people.

But especially Jacob, I don't know how to feel about the long distance relationship but I didn't say anything but we'll make it work.

I texted Jacob. Because we have to hang out today.

Jess: Jacob we have to hang out today
Jacob: Okay sure
Jess: I really miss you for some reason
Jacob: Maybe because you love me
Jess: maybe?!
Jacob: Just say it
Jess: I love you Jacob

I said hanging up the phone with Jacob.

My mom was taking us all out for breakfast, since it was out last day here. It was me, my mom, my aunt and Maggie and Maggie's mom.

I walked over to Maggie's room. "Maggie cmon, we gotta get going" I said walking into her room. "Where are you" I said and went into the washroom, inside of the room.

"Maggie what're you doing" I said in shock. "Stop, leave me alone" she yelled.

"No, you're cutting yourself for what reason" I said throwing the blade across the floor. "Listen to me you're not going to start this, I can't loose you, I can't so stop" I said and sat against the tub crying. "Why're you doing this, I just don't understand. So many people love and care about" I said putting a hand on her leg. "No they don't, no one does" she cried.

"Jess I'm getting so much hate to the point where I don't know what to do, so I tried cutting and-" she cried. "You know what Maggie, you may be getting hate but you can't let so little things get to you, I get hate all the time and you know what I think of all the special people in my life" I smiled. "Because that's all that matters" I said.

"You're right, please don't tell my mom i promise I'll stop!" She said begging me and shaking me.

"You promise!" I said. "Yea I do" she said and got up and wiped away her tears. We cleaned up all the blood and got her a bandaid.

"I need to apologize" she said to me. "No it's okay you were going through something" I said. "No Jess please, I'm so sorry for pushing you away you're my best friend and you were since like grade one oh my gosh, and I would like to keep it like that" she said. "Aw okay sure" I smiled and walked out.

My outfit today was my black romper and my black birkenstocsks, and yes one of my favourite colours are black but I'm not goth girl.

Maggie got in the car and so did my mom and Maggie's mom was carpooling with my aunt. (My mom rented a Range Rover)

Brandon snapped me. "Maggie" I said and zoomed in on her with snapchat. "No stop" she laughed and turned away. Brandon and I have a 40 day streak.

"Ugh who'd you send that to" she asked. "Brandon" I said. "I look so bad I hate you" she laughed.

"Love youu" I said squeezing her cheeks. She slapped my hand away. "Uh, ow" I said laughing.

"Love youu" she laughed. I got a text from Loren.

Loren: Do you wanna go out for dinner
Jess: Ya sure I said
Loren: How about you invite Jacob
and I'll bring Joey
Jess: Good idea
Loren: When's your flight
Jess: The plain leaves at 4:00am
Loren: Aw I'm going to miss you, how're we going to see each other
Jess: I asked my mom she said a few weeks, she's being so nice
Loren: Lol alrighty byeeee
Jess: See ya later!