l Love You But Do You? (Nalu Fanfiction)

Chapter 47

LUCY'S POV

The next morning it was sunday and since i havent been back to my apartment in 2 days i decided i have to head back to make sure it's clear of dust besides i needed a change of clothing.

Natsu had slept on the couch last night even though i said that he should sleep on his bed. He refused and said that i'm his guest and girlfriend, i didnt forget to mention that we had already slept together once( only sleeping in the same bed nothing else) so it was alright.

"That was a mistake" He rubbed the back of his head sheepishly.

"Anyway i will sleep on the couch and you can sleep in my room" With that he stomped off over to the couch leaving me no time to protest so with a sigh i accepted.

I crept quietly down the long flight of stairs and tip toeing my way to check on the sleeping Dragneel i call my boyfriend.

I sat on the ground beside him, Natsu had his arms crossed and his eyes were furrowed but shut. His legs were perched on the other end of the couch in a criss cross position.

Staring up at him since i was a whole level lower then him i let my mind wonder to how Natsu was able to survive on his own. I knew he had enough money so physically he would be alright if his parents left him but what i was most worried about was how he was able to stay sane mentally.

It must have been hard not being able to talk to someone to vent your feelings, the lonliness that would constantly surround you and the anger just being trapped in your body must have been very unhealthy for his mind. Surprisingly Natsu had been able to turn out better then most would if that had happened to them. He seemed to use that tragedy to push himself to be better, stronger and smarter then most people.

I completely knew how hard it would have been because once my mother died everynight my pillow would be stained with tears. My father although not dead wouldve been better off dead. He turned cruel and neglected me. He wasnt the worst but his neglect soon swallowed him that one day he shouted at me in a drunken state.

"Why did it have to be Layla to die why wasnt it you? You dont deserve to be alive!" He shouted at me in fury but tears were visible on his cheeks.

"It wasnt my fault!" I sobbed grabbing my suitcase and running away to Magnolia where i met Natsu and the rest of Fairy Tail.

"Luce whats wrong why are you crying?" I was picked up and dropped on the couch beside Natsu who had placed me on his lap in a bridle position. I wrapped my arms around his neck only to realize i had been crying.

Natsu had a painful expression on his face which made me flood with guilt, Natsu may have thought he had done something wrong.

"I was crying?" looking at him he brushed my tears away with his palms.

"Yes you were. I was worried sick, who wouldnt be if they woke up to see the most important person in their life was crying in front of them." Natsu hugged me snuggling his head into the crook of my neck.

"I'm very sorry Natsu." I hugged him tighter while brushing away the painful memories so i dont start crying again. Natsu has already been through so much he doesnt need to deal with a crying girlfriend.

"Its ok Lucy" He stroked my back. Natsu's hair was still very messy since he was awaken by my sobs. I didnt mean to wake him but memories are painful especially since i tried so hard to forget.

"Do you mind telling me why you were crying?" Natsu's eyes were serious and he had released me, Natsu was holding my shoulders in his hands. I bit my lip thinking of whether or not i should tell him, he didnt need to have to know because it would only cause him un-needed stress and anger besides he has his own problems to deal with.

"Luce whatever your thinking about stop. I need to know why your crying if you want to fix it." His voice was gentle and soft.

"Natsu it doesnt matter" His grip loosened and Natsu readjusted so that i was sitting beside him on the couch, he was on the left side of the couch leaning with one hand on the hand rest. I was leaning againest the back of the couch snug close to Natsu. It was easier to talk now not saying that i wanted to talk about it anyway

"Of course it matters. Now that we are in a more comfortable position i would like it if you told me thoroughly when where and why you are upset." Natsu explained in a stern voice emphasizing the " of course it matters".

"Really it doesn't matter. Can we just not talk about it?" I used a hand to run through my blond locks in frustration. 

"No Luce if something is bothering you i have the right to decide whether or not i want to know about it."

"Natsu please i really don't want to talk about it its just too painful for me to say right now. Can you just give me some time i promise i will tell you." I held his cheeks with both my hands staring in his onyx eyes hoping he would understand and not push me any further.

"Okay i understand i can give you time." he nodded understandingly.

"Thank you Natsu and i'm sorry for waking you up and making  you worry." I gave him a soft kiss on the corner of his lips before parting.

"No Luce i should be sorry. I shouldn't have pushed you into telling me after all i understand how sometimes you need to be alone away from reality and have some time to yourself to recollect your thoughts." I guess he was referring to the death of his parents and the time he needed some time to think.

"Thanks Natsu you really are the best" I dropped my arms around his neck kissing him passionately.

"I'm always here for you whether your happy of sad." He hugged me kissing back.

"For your sake i will always be happy then." I said with a cheery voice trying to enlighten the just tense atmosphere.

"I love you Luce more than anything in the world, i hope you know that." I knew how important i was to Natsu and for just a millisecond i wondered if one day me and Natsu will get married and possibly have kids.

"I know Natsu  l know" That was the beginning of a perfect Sunday. After the teary conversation Natsu decided that we should hang out with the rest of the fairy tail gang. I chuckled at his suggestion. Knowing him he wouldnt ever hang around people he didnt know too well besides i was perfectly clear he was trying to make me happy even if it meant making himself uncomfortable. 

  Natsu had told me that we could walk to my apartment get changed then meet up with the rest of the fairy tail gang.  

This was one reason i love Natsu Dragneel he could if he really wanted to risk his own happiness to make someone else happy. Natsu was one of the most selfless people out there. I cant say he doesnt have his flaws because everyone even Natsu isnt perfect.