Dead Man Walking (Glanny Fic)

Chapter 15

Over the next few days, I barely see Madison. In fact, I barely see anyone. Everyone is so focused on my 'transfer'. But, to be honest with you, no one seems sad to see me go. I don't know why I'm so surprised. I've been an awful patient, so I bet they're counting the days. And now that I think about it, I don't blame them. I would be doing the same if I was them.

Glen doesn't come to see me either. That's part of the plan. The next time he's going to see me is when I'm settled into my new home. When I'm free. It's going to be perfect,

When the day finally arrives, my excitement nearly overwhelms me. I'm finding it so difficult to stay calm for the sake of keeping up appearances. All the nurses wish me well, but I can barely hear them. I just want out, and I want out now.

I'm finally in my own clothing. It's been so long since I've seen them. I feel so alive in them. Like my old self. But I have to admit, after wearing baggy pyjamas 24/7, they feel a little tight. I suppose that's another thing I'm going to need to get back used to.

I'm sat on my bed, my foot jiggling up and down, staring at the empty walls. This was the first place I woke up after I blacked out so long ago. Despite being stuck here for so long, there is nothing that resembles home in this place. It's going to be so easy to forget about this place.

I have absolutely no good memories of this place. Everything that has happened in this stinking hole has broken and maimed my life in some way. I know it's all my fault. But surely this place is making it worse somehow. Being in here makes me brutally aware of what I am. What I can do. Getting out of here will be the best thing for me.

I wish time would just go faster. I want to see his face. I want to see him outside of these four walls, outside of the watchful eyes of nurses. I want to hold him in my arms and tell him how it will all be okay. That I will do my absolute hardest to be a better man for him. I want to kiss his face over and over and tell him how much I love him. I want him to be happy.

Madison finally opens the door and I'm on my feet. She smiles at me.

“Are you ready?” I nod. “Then let's go.”

I ignore the looks that everyone gives me. Normally, my demon would want to wipe the smiles off their faces. But not today. I've pushed him into the furthest part of my mind. I want to show everyone that what I'm doing is right. Even if they don't know the real story.

“Are you excited?” mumbles Madison.

“I can't put it into words.”

“The place is amazing, Danny. You're going to love it.”

We get to the entrance and I stop. Madison turns to look at me. She knows what I'm doing. I'm coming to grips with this whole idea. She nods at me and walks out the door, leaving me to my thoughts.

This is it. This is the day that my life will begin again. This is where I'm going to leave behind my demon and prove to everyone that I can do this. That I have what it takes to become Danny O'Donoghue again.

I turn to look one last time down the clinically white corridors. I caused so much trouble here. I hurt so many people, both mentally and physically. I tore down the barriers of everyone around me, delving into the darkest parts of their souls. I have probably scarred some of these poor people for life. And I don't even know any of their names.

But no longer. I'm going to get through this. I will not let myself slip any more.

I take a deep breath and step out into the real world. Mark and Madison are stood waiting for me. I'm still not sure that Mark is convinced that this is a good idea, but he sure as hell seems happy to see me. He pats me on the back when I make it over to him.

“How you feeling, mate?” he asks.

“Really good.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah. This is going to work. I can feel it.”

He nods, smile faltering ever so slightly.

“Then let's get you to your new place.”

I start towards the car, but Mark pushes back on my shoulder.

“Hold on, Dan. You know the agreement.”

I had almost forgotten. In order for this plan to really work, I need to have no idea where I am. I have a tendency to stay put if I am completely lost. So I won't go running off looking for help or try to find someone to hurt. And in order to do that, I have to be blindfolded.

I nod, closing my eyes and dipping my head. I have to admit: as the blindfold goes around my eyes, I start to feel a little nervous. I fight the faint fluttering in my stomach, willing myself to stay calm. But how difficult is that going to be from now on? I have no idea. How are they going to keep me safe, and how am I going to keep them safe? Doubt has seeped into my mind, and now I'm overthinking the whole thing...

Is this a good idea after all?

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A/N - Hey guys. Nice early start to the day so I thought I would upload another chapter for you all. Sorry if this isn't a great one, it's just one of those 'needs to be in the story' kinda chapters. There's one other chapters like this coming up soon too, but after that they should all start getting interesting again. So yeah, sorry if this is a crap one. Thank you everyone for all of your reads. I still can't get over it all. I'm enjoying writing this more than you could ever know, and plan for, if you everyone still enjoys it, for there to be a good load more chapters. I'm just about to start writing Chapter 24, so you know! Oh, and just so you know, there's some sweet Mark/Danny moments coming up in the next few chapters. Squishy moments too. I feel squishy reading them myself! Ha! Vote, comment, do your thing guys. Much love x