I sit here
the shudder of my spine
feeling like a tear
going in a line
that one can only see in the mirror
leading slowly to the realization
my best friend is gone
i wonder, do i stand a chance at redemption
hah as if, its obviously done
when you cant even start a conversation
when they no longer trust you at all
when the mere mention
of their name brings the call
of relentless emotion
and you just get this notion
that this friendship has lost its motion
that all that friction
has dissipated
when your words are so poorly articulated
we both belong among the hated
and yet something different we created
we both felt accepted
we had no fears of being judged
when i was the brother
and we had no mother
and i wasnt a bother
we shared the same father
the blood of the destroyer
it made it all better
what pains me most is abandonment
not purposefully
but an accident
leaving behind what we created tenatively
while they looked on mockingly
but then my emotions turned on me
and as it happens
so did yours
it wrought devastation
upon my emotional nation
breaking what was so long in creation
why?
abandonment
not purposely
accedenatally
breaking it, worked out, quite ironically,
quite easily
especially for what i believe
where mentally
we never had a reason
it just kinda happened
and we both got fucked over
because of accidental abandonment
