Not Over You

The Truth.

 After another grueling hour of dinner we finally head back to my house and I hang back as my friends run inside. Part of me is so mad that she is letting Nash act like this around her, the other part is still filled with extreme guilt from the kiss with Rebecca. Kylie had run inside with the guys, unaware of every mixed emotion that had been running through my head. I eventually pull myself from my car and head into the house to see the guys tossing shit from couch to couch. Kylie laughs as she smacks Johnson with a pillow and he attacks her taking her to the couch. I walk into the kitchen and grab myself a beer from the fridge when I hear the doorbell ring. 

I walk over to the front door, beer in hand and open it to see Cameron! "Brooo" he says excitedly hugging me I open the door further as he walks in "So, give me the deets on that cutie you were kissing in the picture by the fire last night! Was that your new girl?" he says it loud enough so that I can hear it over the loud screaming, unfortunately Kylie had come to meet him and also heard it. "What is going on?" she asks confused and Cam's eyes go wide "That is not her!" he mouths to me and I begin to panic. "What picture?" Kylie asks me, "I mean I was a little tipsy, but I don't remember taking a pic with you,". She looks at Cam "Can I see it?" she asks sticking out her hand towards him and he stutters "I-I um I" I finally interrupt him "Ky can we talk?" her gaze shifts towards me and she suddenly becomes uneasy. 

I lead her out into the driveway and we climb into my car so I can turn on some music. It is an abnormal awkward environment inside my jeep as we sit there in silence. "Ky theres something I need to tell you and I just can not keep it from you any longer," her eyes go wide as if she knows what is about to leak out of my mouth. "Last night at the party this girl from high school kissed me, it did not mean anything we both had been drinking and that is why I ran back home last night," her eyes fill with tears and she instantly begins to cry "Babe I am so sorry," I say trying to comfort her. She tries to speak through tears, but keeps choking on her words until she eventually makes out a sentence I can understand "I kissed Nash.." she says softly and instantly cries harder than before. I want more than anything to be filled with rage, but all that comes over me is deep sadness. I also begin to cry and she leans over her head resting on my shoulder. Eventually we both get our emotions under control and I look back at her in her beautiful blue eyes, stained red from tears. I wipe a stray tear that caresses her cheek "Do you think you'll ever be able to forgive me?" I ask softly, trying to keep my heart from shattering further "the better question is will you forgive me?" she responds starting to cry again. I pull her into me and run my hands through her hair "I love you Ky, we both messes up, she meant absolutely nothing to me and as long as he means nothing to you I still want to be with you," she looks up at me and tries to smile "I love you too Jack,". 

We sit in the car and hold each other for a while until I ask if she wants to get in the back seats. The open roof of my jeep creates the best place to gaze at the stars from and as she bury's her head into my chest I think about how small we are compared to the universe. Eventually her breathing becomes heavy and I know she is asleep. I grab one of my extra sweatshirts from the trunk and lay it across her body before falling asleep with her in my arms.