Not Over You

Alone

After dinner we begin the long drive back to Omaha, I keep my fingers loosely tangled in Kylie's the entire trip. When we get back into town I drop the guys off at Johnson's house and tell them I will be back later driving Kylie and I to my house. "Here we are" I flip on the light switch as we walk into my house and head into the living room "Do you want a drink or anything?" I ask looking through the fridge and she shakes her head taking a seat on the couch. "So, talk to me" I plop down on the couch next to her taking a sip of my root beer "Um, well" she sighs obviously distressed so I take her hand in mine "We have time, I'm here for you" I tell her rubbing her hand with my thumb and she looks down. "About a month or so ago my Dad left my Mom, because after she lost her job her drinking got to be too much to handle" she bites her lip holding back emotion "So I got a job to help out, keep the family going, because I know my little brother needs me and I-" her emotions get the best of her and she lets out a sob "I just can't do it all, I work all day and then come home to my drunk mom who hits me and throws things" she cries as I wrap her into my arms and let her bury her face into my shoulder "Ky why didn't you tell me" she shakes her head "It's not like we were talking Jack, I was alone" my heart breaks a little realizing her life is in shambles. "It's like ever since we broke up my life hasn't been the same" I hug her again trying to calm her "I just don't wanna be alone anymore" I hold her tightly "You never will be again, I promise" she pushes away from me "you're leaving again soon I know it" I bite my cheek "Just for a few weeks" she sinks her face into her hands crying again "Can't you go live with your Dad?" I ask rubbing her back and she shakes her head "He doesn't want anything to do with us, not even Dylan" her little brother Dylan and her dad had always been extremely close I couldn't imagine loosing my father.

I stand up and walk over to the TV turning on the Disney channel and sit back down slinging my arm over Kylie's shoulder. She lays into my arm putting her head on my shoulder and covers us with a blanket. I rub her back softly for a while as we listen to the low buzz of the TV. "Jack what do I do?" She asks softly after a pause of silence "I don't know" I reply wishing more than anything I knew how to fix this for her. "When do you leave again?" She asks her blue eyes looking up at me and I sigh "In two days" she looks down and I can tell it's not what she wanted to hear. "How bout tomorrow I take you and D out for the day?" I pull her chin up so she has to look and me and she searches my face "We will have fun and it'll be my treat" she looks back down "I don't know Jack" she plays with the hem of my shirt "I don't wanna do this" I pull her chin up again "Do what?" I ask staring deep into her eyes "I don't wanna fall in love to loose you again" her seriousness breaks my heart. I move a strand of hair from her face "Ky, I don't know what the future has in store for us, but I'm not leaving you, not again" she shakes her head "You said we'd be together forever the first time too remember?" I lean forward taking a sip of my root beer "Forever isn't over yet Kylie" I say slowly and she bites her lip nervously "I wanna believe in you Jack, but why should I?" I lean back against the cool leather couch "Because I'm not over you now, and I never will be Kylie" I breathe heavily. I lean in and kiss her temple softly "I know now what I didn't before, I'm not making the same mistakes anymore, I loved you then and I love you now" she places her hand softly against my jaw "I love you too".