Changing Harry Styles

14. Him

Tea... I needed tea. Tea cleared my mind and helped me think, but lately me thinking was what has gotten me in trouble.

We had a single cupboard devoted to almost every bran of tea under the sun. From David's Tea to Tetley, Earl Grey to Dark Chocolate Chai we had it all. Mostly the American brands, it was easy to buy and quite frankly not all that bad.

I picked one at random, and poured some hot water from the kettle I had just boiled into a mug. I decided to put myself through even more pain by using the mug Sadie had bought me for our six month year anniversary. Cute little mug, white with a sharpie sketch of the two of us. Sadie had a real talent for drawing.

I miss her drawings.

My sweat pants hung low on my hips, just above my junk, and I had skipped out on the shirt business. I poured some cream in my tea but no sugar. I didn't take sugar in my tea.

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My hips leaned heavily on the island, and i starred aimlessly at our microwave. Just... Thinking.

Then, a happy Perrie came bounding down the stairs, her hair drying in a towel on her head. She was wearing some shorts and a cropped shirt, no makeup today.

"Harry! Nice to see you!" She said cheerfully. Zayn came down the stairs, sweat shorts on with no shirt. He hugged his Perrie from behind and kissed her neck softly.

"Perrie! What are you still doing here? I swore you left!" It came out a little harsh as always, and Her smile faltered.

"I flew in last night..." She had a hint of almost, disappointment in her voice, and Zayn glared at me.

"Let's not be a dick about it Harry maybe I just wanted to see my girlfriend." I put my mug down and raised my hands in defence.

"Sorry, sorry." I returned my attention to my much deserved cup of tea, and could see Zayn practically pegging Perrie in the living room.

"Bedrooms dont have to just be for sleeping you know." Zayn rolled his eyes and grabbed Perrie's hand.

"Ignore him, Lets just go upstairs for awhile..." She giggled again and the two left me standing in the kitchen.

"Condom!" I shout at them. Zayn is rolling his eyes, I can just tell. I lean against the counter smirking when Niall comes in through the front door.

"Thanks for that, Mer! Tomorrow at nine right?" Oh no, please say she wasn't here.

"Yup! Thank you for coming with me last minute." Shit. That most most certainly her.

"Nothing I wouldn't do for a friend, wanna come inside?" Oh no. Oh nononononononono.

"SUre I'd like th-" SHe stopped when she saw me, her bright smile shifting to a grim line. "Sorry Niall, I just remembered I have to go." She snarled.

"Oh are you sure? I mean it's alright-" He turned and saw me. "Oh. I get it. Wanna do something later then?"

"I have an animal rights meeting at 6 until 7:30, wanna go see a movie?" Nial agreed and said his goodbyes, shutting the door behind her.

I suddenly developped a sense of claustrophobia. No, developped was the wrong word for this. Developing happens over time, this hit me like a brick wall. Ouside, I needed to breathe the outside.

I stumbled outside in the most ungraceful of fashions, and landed on the porch swing. I didn't even know we had one. My tea had dribbled down my front, and I was panting heavily. The tea was sloshing around in the mug threatening to spill. I did not care anymore, I dumped it over the wooden boards.

I tried thinking of everything, anything, that would calm me down. My heart was pounding in my chest, and it sounded an awful lot like a bomb set to go off. Football, Money, hot Girls, even the thought of Sadie couldn't calm me down. Then, my mind ran into the thoughts of Meredith.

She was so many things, evil, deceiving, conceided, heartless, just to name a few. The last thing I wanted to think about was her. But despite my undying hatred for the witch, I could feel myself calming down.

I knew, deep deep down, she was none of those things. She cared for every living thing, all she wanted was to see this planet thrive in harmony between plant and person. But yet she was infuriating for reasons I can't explain. The worst part about it all was that everyone loved her. EVERYONE.

And she loved them right back.

The truth was sitting right there, plain and simple for no one but me to realize. I didn't want to admit it, I hated to admit it, but I didn't hate her. Who could hate Meredith Rambler and her bright smile that could very well be the cause of global warming itself. She cared for everyone, except me, and that was my problem. I wanted her to give me one of her caring smiles that she always wore for Niall, or her dad, or at a simple stranger. But instead all I got was hatred. She was the only girl who didn't even like me.

I wanted her to like me, maybe that would give me a sense of closer with Sadie. But I was an asshole, and I deserved that respect regardless of what I said to her. C'mon man, quit thinking like that. My self concious warned. I knew it was right, so instead of sitting taller with pride, I sunk lower in shame.

"Harry?" Niall called. I ddn't reply, I was not up for another lecture about how I should treat females. But of course that sorry bastard found me.

"Hey mate, you okay?"

"Niall, when in the past year have I EVER been okay?" I stated. He nodded and sighed.

"I know mate, just trying to be supportive." I didn't want his support, nor his pity.

"Don't you have a date to get ready for?" I snarled. Niall looked at e in confusion, before laughing. Why was he laughing.

"So that's what this is about? Harry, it's not a date. It's two friends going to see a movie." He shrugged. "Besides, that's not for another millions of hours."

"That's not what it's about. I don't even like her like that, let alone at all." I crossed my arms.

"Harry, maybe if you were actually nice, you'd know she's one of the greatest people alive."

"Why does everyone keep saying that?! She's nothing but a worthless piece of shit with a heart as cold as Antartica." 

"Okay, that is way too harsh and you know it." I did know it, but like hell I would tell him that.

"It's because she looks like Sadie, isn't it?" He whispered softly.He had hit my soft spot. I looked at him with every ounce of sadness I could muster, before breaking into a rant.

"Niall, I want you to listen up, and listen hard. Meredith Rambler will never, EVER be anything like Sadie. No one will be my Sadie and expecially not HER. She is rude, arrogant, and overall horrid. I want nothing to do with her, and don't you ever bring up Sadie again!" I shout at him. He opens his mouth to respond, but another voice answers instead.

"Fuck you Harry!" I look over and see Meredith standing on her deck close to tears. She goes running inside, tears dripping down her face.

"Way to be Harry." Niall glares at me and goes inside, leaving me alone.

Again.

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