Changing Harry Styles

16. Him

It was an impulsive choice, but I knew I needed to talk to her, to tell her everything.

Absolutely everything.

From the moment I first saw Sadie to the most awful choice I made the night she died. HOw her death changed me, for the good. How I got lost in the fame because it was better than getting lost in the sadness that came with her death. I needed to tell her but I didn't know why.

Niall left me on the porch, after yelling at me for being so insensitive, and I didn'tmove for hours. At least I think it was hours, it could have been minutes or seconds but I didn't move. Until a raindrop well on my cheek.

Jumping up from my seat I ran inside, I ran upstairs into Liam's bedroom. He knew what rain meant for me, and I needed him. His door was closed but I could hear him talking.

"Are you sure?..... But Dani.... Babe I completely understand but do we have to do this now?..... You know I'd do anything for you.... Alright, well if that's what you want, I'll give it some time.... I love you and I hope you know that.... Goodbye Dani." I barged through the door, finding Liam laying on his back with a tear streaked face.

"Did you guys just...? I didn't need to finish, he did it for me.

"Break up? That obvious huh?" He tried laughing but it didn't work.

"Liam it's raining." I say in a small voice. His face floods with concern.

"Actually?"

"No I just said that for fun, because I just LOVE it when it rains. I LOVE flashbacks." Liam sat up and threw me a shirt, some The Who shirt I'd left in here ages ago.

"Harry, you can do this. Let's go downstairs and watch a movie or two, until it stops raining. COncentrate on the movie and you won't get flashbacks."

"How do you know that?" I whisper. He gets up and pats my back.

"I don't Harry, I don't know at all."

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Liam picked Titanic. Stereotypical as it was, it was the only movie that could keep me captivated for the entire three hours. It was my only hope.

"Okay, so if this doesn't work, we'll try something more kick-ass, like RED or G.I. Joe or something. Now I got ice cream, popcorn, chips, soda, beer, m&m's, all the food we need. You ready?" Liam asked. I was sitting on the couch like a child, because I was helpless. Outside, a large boom sounded. I shuttered.

"Please."

Liam rushed to put the movie on, knowing what could happen if he wasn't fast enough. Soon enough it started, and just like planned, I was beyond captivated.

Rose was about to jump, and Jack came up to save her. Liam was relaxing when he saw that I was concentrating on the movie, and not the rain. Thank goodness I wasn't thinking about rain, or I would've-

My thoughts were sucked away by a boom of thunder, and I flashed back to that horrid night.

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It was a thursday.

I don't remember the date, because I chose not to. But I remeber it was a thursday.

Sadie and I were at some small cafe on Winston St., and it was dumping rain. The time was 9:45 pm, and it was closing soon.

"God I hate rain, makes it so hard to have a cigarette." Sadie groaned.

"Good, you should quit anyways."