Zodiac Lovers

22 - This is Goodbye

CLARKE POV

my mom and Kane are in the court room while Bellamy waits outside. After a hour the judge agrees with what I said on never seeing him again.

I can't help but feel bad even though he's alive I still will miss him.

We walk out of the court room. Before I could get to Bellamy sitting on a chair my mother pulled me to the side for a second.

"You really need to tell Bellamy you can't see each other anymore ok. Or i will." She says and I nod letting her walk away and Bellamy stands up and looks at me. Coming to me. My mother nods at me knowing I have to do this. I know that this gonna hurt me a lot more then Bellamy.

"Hey I'm so glad your ok." He said hugging me tight then looked at me pulling away. I tried not to cry.

"Clarke what's wrong." He asked moving a strand of hair out of my face.

At this point I don't know what to say to make his stay away only.....

"I never want to see you again......" I whisper but he still hears.

"What?" He asked.

"I don't want to see you Bellamy don't you get that you were nothing ok just fun....." I say. Lie lie LIE I would never ever say this to him ever I am in love with him I'm only doing this so he'll stay away and stay alive. Oh god I can't do this.

If there's one thing you don't want to do it's make a Scorpio mad. And Bellamy was mad I could see it.

"What are you talking about?" He said in a low tone.

"I'm talking about how you were kinda like a prank you know just something funny but it obviously got out of hand so yeah plus I slept with someone else so yea." I say with a straight face and fake smile but all I want to do is curl up in my unit forever in the dark and cry until there's nothing left.

"So I was just a fuck buddy only I didn't know about it." He said more mad after what I said.

"Yes." I say getting up in his face. I hate myself.

"Slut...." He mumbled. lol

"What?" I ask. I couldn't hear him.

"I said your a slut." He said backing me into the wall and getting up in my face.

"Who?" He said.

I didn't know who I would say considering I'm lying.

"Finn...." I say. God I hate myself.

He just nodded then he eyes went dark.

"I've done some pretty bad things Clarke but none of which was use someone for sex when they didn't even know about it so yes that makes you a selfish little Virgo slut!" He said making the T stand out.

My heart stopped at that, my mind went blank, I couldn't breath.

"I should have known you know because Virgo bitches can be nothing but poison so I hope you had fun Clarke because I never want to see you again and if you think any amount of apology will settle what you did your sadly mistaken princess!" He said then stormed out of the building then walking back to Scorpio with Kane and the guards.

What have I done.......

I walk out to see my mom waiting for me.

"Is it done?" She asked me.

"Yeah...." I say softly.

"What did you say?" She asked.

"doesn't matter. What matters is that he won't come back so he won't die...." I say about to burst.

"Can we just go home...." I say looking at her.

"Yeah come on." She said and we walked back to my unit.

When I get to my unit it's dark and I haven't been in here for a while. After I lock the front door and turn with my back to it I start to cry. I cover my mouth so I'm not loud. I slide down to the floor and buried my face in my knees I'm holding the necklace he gave me tight in my hand. I stay there for a while sobbing then when I do get up its just to crawl in my bed and cry some more. What is wrong with me? The only thing that matters is that he won't come back.

I cry my self to sleep but it's not like my dreams are any better.

I'm still holding the necklace.

A/N
I'm a horrible person I teared up thinking about this while I was writing it because what if Bellamy and Clarke actually got in a fight like this in the show.😭😭😭. Hopefully it gets better soon for you guys. Sorry again it'll get better. Idk when though.