This Time

Chapter 7: The Reason

As usual.. I called you first.

But you didn't answered it.

And you texted me that you're still busy.

And so I waited for an hour and then you texted that you're free now.

But you're the one who called. And I'm so happy.

We talked about things happening around.

We talked about what happened for the past few days.

It was normal.. but I gathered up my braveness to ask you why did you leave me like I was nothing..

And I did asked you.

It took time for you to answer my question.

But I was so ashamed to what I did, and I ended the call.

And you texted.

You: What happened?

Me: I think I shouldn't have asked you.

You: But I know you really want to know the reason right?

Me: Yes. I really do. Why did you leave me? Like I was nothing, like nothing had happened. Like it was so easy for you. You just dont know how much I overthinked to what have I done wrong. After all the kilig? After all the moments? And after that kiss! How could you!?

You: I am sorry... I didn't know it was like that. I didn't know I've hurt you that much.

Me: Ofcourse you dont know! Because you were a fool! You dont care about what others could feel!

You: I'm really sorry.. sorry. Its just that , that time you were still too young. Its just the gap between us. And there's so much things to happen for you. I've decided to stop. But I didn't know that I've hurt you so much.

Me: THE GAP? For god's sake!! What are you thinking??! I fucking know that I'm still young for 2years from you! Was that a big deal?! Bullshit! I didn't even want to have a relationship with you that time! But then you showed MOTIVES! You even kissed me! I hope you've realized that before! Like I hope you stopped immediately from communicating with me the time you knew my age! Shit! Or even if you left, I still deserve to know you're reasons before you did! Not like having a cigarrete when you're bored and then being stepped on when you're done! HOW COULD YOU!!!!

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5 missed calls

From: MYLOVE 💘
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You: Answer it.. please let me explain.

Me: It was enough..that I already knew the reason. Let's stop this. I was so hurt. And I dont know if I could still forgive you. For three years! I think it's too much. And so I will stop this.