Set me free

A light in the dark

From the very beginning being fat was like being an outcast. Nobody liked you. Nobody understood you. Nobody cared. Being skinny was normal, natural, sane. Bones were beautiful. Sharp. Piercing. What happened to loving someone for who they are and not what they look like? Why do we compare skinny to overweight? Why do we judge our love on who has the perfect boobs or the flattest stomach? As women we are constantly comparing ourselves to the opposites. And sadly no matter big or small we all want the same thing; that perfect body image. That society's acceptance of a beautiful, gorgeous, sexy woman. Society is WRONG. Why they choose to feed and brainwash girls at a very young age that skinny is the only way to be beautiful, despite the known "reasons" is beyond me. We should be teaching the children of the next generation that who they are on the inside will always be beautiful. Looks are superficial. As time goes on you start to loose any and every reminder of the skinny "beautiful" you. And all that's really left to matter is the inside. The personality. The heart. Morals. Values. Etc. We work ourselves up and go to desperate measures to be the perfect woman. You're in a relationship and your partner eyes someone skinnier or prettier you automatically are willing to do anything to put yourself in the shoes of the gorgeous woman they laid their eyes on. Most of it is due to the own insecurities we have within ourselves. But who can we really blame for those. Low self esteem wasn't something we were born with. We grow up learning that who we are as human beings isn't quite good enough. And when we get to the point of no return; the point where we start to not only dislike our bodies but to hate ourselves, no matter what, no amount of compliments will change your mind. No. The only person who can really change how they feel about you is you yourself. To realize that society was wrong. That they were all wrong and to really start to love ourselves again is the hardest things some of us have or have had to do. I am with me all the time. I am my twin. My own best friend. I will always have one person on my side no matter what and that person is me. In the end I'm all I've got. It's easier said then done but loving who we are no matter what were labeled to be by society is the healthiest and most successful thing we could ever do for ourselves. It opens doors after doors of opportunities. Opportunities to experience true happiness. Opportunities to experience crazy head over heals jealousy not included love. Opportunities to seriously let the sly and cruel remarks role off of our shoulders and be at peace with who we are. And instead of fighting against eachother competing for best dressed best body best everything, we should be working together and proving to one another that no matter fat, skinny, smart, dull, short or tall, we all have one thing very important in common: our hearts. And everyone deserves to feel love. To feel like they have a purpose. To not experience the depths and devils of heartbreak. Society IS wrong. And we can either continue to let them brand everyone with specific faults or we can work hard to see past the lies and deceits and be OK with the heart beating inside us letting us know we are alive and every day is a blessing. Stop competing. Stop trying to win a prize that does not really exist. Be you. Being you is enough. And whether you have doubts or not it always will be.