Set me free

I cant look down

I feel like shit and my eyes wanna cry.
But I wont let the tears fall for the sake of my pride.
I was born with a passion I never could hide,
but without family and friends that passion long ago died.
Sometimes I wish I was never born,
but then I would've never met the people that have helped keep my heart warm.
I can say that I'm stupid but that isnt true.
I was born with a brain; im just no longer sane.
Writing keeps me going.
It keeps me alive.
My lifespan grows longer with each word I write.
I am blessed with a husband, so amazing; so true.
No tear needs to fall because he stops all the blues.
Without him I just wouldnt be.
In the literal since, not a figmant of speech.
But I have faith that he'll always be by myside.
He hasnt left yet. And its been quite a ride.
The friends that I make arent always real,
but I dont need the drama from a misinformed deal.
I'll keep my head up and I'll never lose hope.
Thats my ticket to freedom.
Its my only way 'home'.