Dancing Under the Moonlight

Ch.7 hard feelings

I just don't understand. What did I feel for Rhys. Why did he change so much? Or was he always like this?
Hmm well the view was beautiful. If only i wasn't so distracted, his arms around me felt so right. And all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around him too. To let him just hold me close and not have any worries. To just forget about it all, the night court, tam, Lucien. But no I can't I had to keep my hands to myself. Why do I even feel like this.
All of this was just going through my mind that I didn't notice Rhys, but then it hit me well not quite literally. But it hit me why I felt so warm and comfortable.
" uhh!!" I say surprised. Rhys was in bed with me. Not that he didn't feel and smell delicious."mmmm" I then say. He did feel great all wrapped me, and maybe just this once I'll let him slide.
It doesn't take me long to fall into that deep deep sleep. Before I know it though I feel a slight shift.
"Uh" I say still groggy and tired from the sleep, which let me point out was amazing. " ahhh" I say, just then perceiving that Rhys is laying with me. Is that like not a big deal or something?
" something wrong love?" He says like the position were in is fine. Like did I wake up in an alternate universe or something like that?
" ya, did you like not notice that were in bed?" I say, " or am I just in an alternate universe?"
" well love, lets just say you are in an alternate universe where me hugging you is completely and utterly fine, now aren't we." He says clearly trying to sweet talk me into thinking that this was just okay.
"Uhh Rhys don't even try and do his right now, I just doth understand why you are still lying in my bed." I scream. But I just wish I could stay mad at him but I can't. It's like he is stopping me from being mad at him. But he wouldn't do that to me. Right??? "Rhys you're not changing my emotions right?" I say is but I feel like tears are threatening to spill over my eyes. I just can't even believe that he would do that to me. But why not he probably hates me despises me. But for some reason I just wouldn't be able to live with myself if he hated me. I don't know why I had such a change of emotions it's just that. Well as much as he wont admit it he really helped me and took care of me under the mountain. It's just that I feel like I'm being a terrible person and he just doesn't deserve it.
"Feyre, darling what's wrong." He says in such a soft kind and gentle voice that I break. And next thing I know tears spill over my eyes.
And then I say it what I've been wanting to say for such a long time, I just didn't know it. "I'm sorry Rhys I'm sorry for being so terrible yo you. I'm sorry because you don't deserve it. And I'm sorry very sorry that you hate me" I say this all because it's true. It's so out of character for me but it's so truthful. This is how I really feel.
He doesn't say anything maybe just not yet. All he does is reach out and holds me close to him so close. I breath I try to calm but tears just keep spilling over. I hate and I mean hate how I'm acting so, so weak in front of him. But for some reason for some odd odd reason I feel like it's okay. Like he is my, umm how would you say it equal. Yes I feel like he is my equal. Like he will understand it all. And that's when I hear it I hear it again what i have heard before I now I hear it again... Mate, equal, mate, MATE, MATE. I almost feel like it's shouting at me. But for now I just ignore it. For now I'll just go and sleep. In the comfort of my ma- wait what no he's not my mate, I meant to say I'll go to sleep in the comfort of my Rhys. Yes mine, he is mine. I just feel like he is. You know he probably isn't but it sounds so right so I'll just a
Say he is, just for now. Until I heard it in the moment where I fell asleep again, I heard him say it half asleep, 'mine, my mate' and me being half asleep I must have said it subconsciously through the bond 'yours'. We had said this all through the bond and you know what I'm positive I'll forget it but for now I'm his his mate, his equal.
Okay hey there guys and gals, this is a bit shorter than my usual with not even one thousand words, but seriously I got some feels from this chapter. And it was kinda of hard to write. But let me just say it came from my heart. Also sorry if this is a bit out of character for Feyre and Rhys but I just wrote. Oh also sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes. Peace out gals oh and guys.